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These are the good old days - Waterbury Republican-American

... closely with politically-oriented cable TV shows, you know the world is certain to explode any ... But no matter how bad things are right now, at some point in the future people will refer to the current time as "the good ol' days."

Whalers' new giant is learning on the job - TheDay

In no way was Parker trying to compare ... Mount Parker tends to explode at the thought of a 6-foot-4 kid getting pushed around. "I know he's just trying to make me a better player," Larrieux said. "It's been a good year. The experience of playing ...

Explode Into Colors Blast Into Detroit Bar - Orange County Weekly

She had no idea what she was in for ... I was technically good, but I wasn’t into anything I was playing. It was just this weird disconnect.” So what to do? Learn how to play drums, of course. When Explode Into Colors formed, Meza took to the ...

Is there a link between Three Headed Babies and War ... - Daily Mail

Surely someone in the USA had a teensie-weensie niggling doubt about whether it was a good thing to be manufacturing Tank round javelins and ... When you add super velocity ot DU, and explode it in the vacinity of Humans, it literally melts the ...

On Native Ground - American Reporter

There is much about the case of Umar Farouk Abdulmutallab, the 23-year-old Nigerian accused of attempting to explode a plastic device aboard a flight from Amsterdam to ... Why did no one take note of Abdulmutallab? Why were the only things that kept ...

Morning Meme: Nick Rodriguez is Booming, John Barrowman ... - AfterElton.com

I wonder what it takes to make the Pope ’s head explode? Lady GaGa’s signature outfits are bad for her health ... I guess talking about bedrooms to near strangers all day is a good way to get laid? This is actually a t-shirt you can buy , and if ...

Listen online: Speak no Evil - Martyn Waites - yorkshirepost

In his latest novel Speak No Evil , former journalist Joe Donovan has been recruited to tell the story of Anne Marie Smeaton, the former child murderer Mae Blacklock, whose nightmares are about to explode ... not a necessarily good one.

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Prosecutor says Gobert has no conscience - Austin American-Statesman

During closing arguments in the punishment phase of Milton Dwayne Gobert’s capital murder trial Wednesday, prosecutor Allison Wetzel said the convicted killer has no conscience ... Dwayne Gobert told the jury “when I explode, I explode” and ...

23 Jason Richardson, SG - CBS Sports

No information available at this time ... handed dunk on a breakaway as the rest of the Phoenix Suns watched in disbelief, while the San Antonio Spurs savored their good luck in a 113-110 win on Sunday. 02/28/2010 Advice It ruined an otherwise solid ...

Open Question: How can I get my ex boyfriend back?

It's been a few weeks since me and my ex bf broke up and I can't stop thinking about him...every minute of every day. He always told me that he loved me and he missed me when we were apart (while we were still dating). I always felt the same way, we spent every day together just about. We even slept next to each other. He always said how happy I made him. I know we had some problems, but they were not major problems. Well, he had problems with me because I didn't really try anything new like he wanted to. I didn't realize it bothered him so much until we were breaking up, he just exploded like it had been boiling up in him for some time. We are opposites but I thought we were good together because we loved each other. I tried to get him back more than once and he kept saying "No, I can't deal with this right now". He gave me a bunch of excuses why a relationship couldn't work. He wants to date my friend because they have more in common and now he always wants to be around her. She's not really into him like that, she wants to take it slow. I don't understand what she has that I DON'T have. When we were breaking up I was crying and I said why can't you comfort me, and he was like because it hurts to be in the same room with u. He just sat there like he didn't know what to do and couldn't get out of there fast enough. I'm trying to give him his space. I haven't texted him/called him in like a week. I want him to miss me. He said that it would take some time to get over me. I told him I missed him and he said he misses me too but he hasn't done anything to show it. He's ALWAYS hanging out with that other girl so as long as he's with her, he's not going to miss me :(. They're just friends right now but they're still really flirty. I want him to want me back as much as I want him. We were planning our one year anniversary and then he just breaks up with me out of the blue and I didn't understand why. I have NOT been able to get him off my mind, it just feels like my heart is breaking a little more each day that I can't see him. He says we can still be friends but how can I be his friend when I want him back? He said he still loves me but we can be friends. Please help, him and this other girl haven't started dating yet and I don't want to act too desperate. I've already done that and it backfired. How do I get him back? :(That is good advice, thanks. He knows that I miss him...so if he feels the same way, then why can't he tell me that? One of his problems was that I wasn't very independent. I told him I could change and would try new things and he STILL won't get back together with me. I just don't understand. After a year of being together, he drops me for my friend. If he loves me as much as he says he does, then why won't he come back? :( more

Open Question: My mechanic and i have a disagreement over "Preventative Maintenance," What are your thoughts on this subject?

I wll explain: My Mechanic basicallly says "if it aint broke, dont fix it." This applies, for him, to EVERYTHING. Water Pump, Fuel Pump, etc.. He says "Wait for it to develop a Problem, and if you have the money to do a test, replace the part, since you suspect it." (This is also the one that put 1/3 the old BROWN Trans fluid back in my NEW 82,000 Trans, now at 90,000 miles.. I will Drain anD fill that with NEW and no Flushing.) I believe that Preventative Maintenance is Good. Like now.. I suspect Fuel Pump, though i will try the Gas first, then Filter (trying to eliminate Possibles.) It made me think of the Mechanic.. Basically, we have come to an arrangement,, if i have the money, and have the part, he will do whatever Job i ask for 1/3 to 1/2 the "Rate." I was thinking Fuel Filter.. I have No Idea how one diagnoses a Vacuum line OR uses a Scan Tool for OBD1.. Bt i know this arrangement is good. back last year, my 85 Escort had Engine trouble. The Head Gasket was rebuilt and i had NO Money.. so i installed MotorData Program and bought a little Laptop.. he cna now print Invoices, and every job he does now.. Exploded Diagrams, etc. And he knows the car, he put the "New: Trans in. Sooo... what are your thoughts on this "Preventative maintenance," sinc if it DOES come to Fuel Pump Dying (gas and Filter dont lick issue,) ill be taking it there, car still runs ok when warmed up like 15 or 20 minutes in, but the Stumbling on Acceleration DOES surface sometimes.. Thanks. ..................+. .................... .............................................................................................................. more

Open Question: Can I have feedback on my poem?

can you guys give me feedback on how to fix or improve it because i'm part of a writer's block and i was hoping to read this and make a good impression It's a cold and dark winter She sits beside the window Surrounded by silence She stares into the night with listless eyes And quietly waits Who knew silence could be so loud Her eyes fall on a crooked pathway Faint memories appear in her head The strings of a double bass are plucked in a steady beat The mesmerizing rhythm slowly grows louder They had walked down that path No more than a year ago, holding hands They couldn't be any happier That was the night A single cello plays a soft sweet solo Her face bloomed like a sweet flower She looked in to his green eyes And saw her future in it Two cellos now play a duet in beautiful harmony That night they danced in the moonlight For what seemed like a eternity The cellos slowly fade away Then one day Numb to her cries and pleas They stole him away from her And for one last night They embraced each other Grasping every second they had The single cello once again plays a sad melody But then is accompanied by a violin And together they play Bombs exploded, bullets pierced And one day she got a letter Cymbals crashed, melodies collided in cacophony Tragedy struck She was forever forlorn A cry pierces through the silence The memories fade away Now a violin plays a barely audible tune She looks at the child that was sleeping in her arms She sees him in its angelic visage She caresses it and lulls it back to sleep Then she continues staring listlessly into the night As three tears fall down her inanimate face She then sees a dark shadow emerging in the distance As it approaches her eyes fill with ecstasy Her faces illuminate and she screams in joy Now the whole orchestra blasts in euphony The cello runs, the violin sing, the bass vibrates and the guitar squeals The three of them dance and cry happy tears The symphony fades and comes back to the two cellos' bittersweet melody The time arrives and he disappears with the wind And the two of them watch, Their eyes dancing with an undying flame and for a moment nothing else mattered The cello's dissolve and all that is left is the steady rhythm of the double bass more

Open Question: This guy is really starting to confuse me..?

WARNING: This is long So i like this guy-lets call him Bob. I asked him out about 2 months ago and he rejected. I got sad after that i did my best to avoid him. Then a while after that he sent me a message(i asked him out on message-i was too chicken to ask it directly to him) saying that he kinda half liked me. So i thought he just meant he liked me as a friend and i told him he could've just said that. But on chat he said that he meant that he actually LIKES me. He said he would've said yes to go out with me but his parents would never let him date. We're in 8th grade btw. So now it's March and god this Bob is starting to confuse me!! I am an over reactor and I know that..so just tell me if it's just my imagination. So we're not dating-we're just two people that like eachother and tell eachother that.. through chat most of the time. We RARELY talk, and that makes me mad. All we do is chat and say hi to eachother in the hallway. Sometimes I go to his locker and talk to him, but it's always me going to his locker. I used to walk him down to his 7th hour but now I don't..cuz i need to think.. 1) I don't think he likes me as much as he used to. We used to hug. It's been 2 or 3 weeks since we've hugged. If he's on chat, no matter how long I am(unless i texted him telling him to get on) I'm the one starting the convo. Once i was on for 10 mins and nothing. I had to say hi first. And he doesn't do as many hearts, or tells me "i like u" as much as he used to. If i say it, then he says it too. 2) He talks to his friends that are girls more than he talks to me!!! I don't have a problem that he has girls that are friends-but I don't like how he talks to them more than he talks to me. And what's even worse is that this one girl-we're "friends" but I don't like her so much-flirts with him SOO MUCH! She flirts with everyone though... and the other day on chat i was like "im not gonna talk to u tomorrow"-cuz he was being "mean"(i was kidding thoo) and then i was like "haha lol not that we talk anyway" and he said "hey we try" but i feel like im the only one trying. I even asked him if we could walk down together(hes going to gym and im going to band-they're in the same direction) and we only did tht once-when i asked him. and a while ago(like 2 months ago) we said we should go to the movies together. He said he would trick his parents saying that he's going with his friend-which they would assume is a guy. So today I asked him if he wants to go watch alice in wonderland and he said i would like to and i thought he meant that he could-so i got all excited. but he said that he couldn't cuz of his parents. So i was thinking WTF you said you could a while ago. So um yeahh... But he said we could hang in the summer and go get icecream(my idea) the only reason i want to watch a movie with him is to spend some time with me......and i REALLY don't want to wait 3 months!!!!!!!!!! Haha idk how or if anyone will reply...but it feels good to have typed this all up and explode out my feelings. Thanks! more

Open Question: How to stop the irritation and anger i have towards my mom and how to control my emotions?

I never get angry or irritated easily but it's like as soon as i see my mom,I always immediately get really angry at her and get into that horrible mood when i feel so mad and irritated. I don't know how to control it at all because i'm not like this towards other people and I'm scared that i will get like this towards other people too in the future. I mean just a second ago my mom called me and asked me if i could check one thing for her on the internet. I started searching for what she asked me to search for but at some point i got really frustrated and irritated and started yelling to her. I got into this horrible rage mood and I just hung up because i felt like i'm going to explode.It might be because she didn't answer my calls and my text messages and then just expects me to be all nice after her not answering any of MY calls and just ignoring the fact that i needed to talk to her. But then again sometimes i get angry and irritated for no reason at all. Another thing is that she just sometimes laughs at me when i get angry at her,which makes me even more angry. She is all like oh she's so small and she's in puberty age anyway and so on.Yes i think the puberty has something to do with this but it's not all about it because i've gone through the hardest parts of puberty already.I just don't know what it is though. I've still never thrown anything at her or hit her (except for like 1 year ago when i slapped her,it was by mistake and it was when we were going through a really hard time,i felt bad for like a month afterward) I don't want to hurt my mom or anything but at times i just get so angry that i feel like i can't control it. I am scared that i will someday hurt her really bad because of this. On one hand i love my mom the most in this whole world but on the other hand i want to get away from her as soon as possible so that this anger would stop. I have always had problems with controlling my moods and emotions. I have an emotional reaction to almost anything and i cry really easily. My mom just called back and i tried to keep it cool and calm but after a while of talking i just couldn't control my mood anymore and i started crying and hung up.It's like i can't control anything.Please help me,how can i control my anger and all of my other moods better? Thanks and sorry for my imperfect english. more

Open Question: mental health, please help me?

I am 24 years old women. I need help as I am worried that I will ruin my relationship. I love my partner very much, he is wonderful. But, I had a bad childhood with my mother, she is a very hateful person, I always promised myself that I would not turn out like her, but I am and I can't stop. Even the smallest amount of stress will set me off, example, going food shopping, I wasn't sure if I had enough money for sometime, my partner asked if we should grab some more coffee and I just lost it, its hard to explain but I just want to explode, when I feel hurt or threatened I do the same, I lash out I want to scream, every little thing ends up with me calling him hurtful names and crying, it feels like I want to smash my head into the wall and pull my hair out, it happens all the time and understanably he can't take any more. Im really scared, one day I would love to have kids but I wont because I am scared I will end up treating them like my mother treated me. She would always start fights or sulk when things didn't go her way and then in the heat of the moment say horrible things (your a slut, your no good etc), sometimes she would say nothing just to make me angry, she liked to make me stressed out so she could laugh at me then tell my dad how bad I was. I really really want a peaceful happy life. Please more

Resolved Question: Just for fun, can any one give chemical analysis of a woman?

ELEMENT : Woman SYMBOL : Wo DISCOVERER : Adam ATOMIC MASS : Accepted at 53.6kg, but known to vary from 40 - 200kg OCCURRENCES : Copious quantities in urban areas PHYSICAL PROPERTIES : 1. Surface usually covered with painted film. 2. Boils at nothing, freezes without any known reason. 3. Melts if given special treatment. 4. Bitter if incorrectly used. 5. Found in various states ranging from virgin metal to common ore. 6. Yields if pressure applied to correct places. CHEMlCAL PROPERTIES : 1. Has great affinity for gold, silver and range of precious stones. 2. Absorbs great quantities of expensive substances. 3. May explode spontaneously without prior warning and for no known reason. 4. Insoluble in liquids but activity increases greatly by saturation in alcohol. 5. Most powerful money reducing agent known to man. COMMON USES : 1. Highly ornamental, especially in sports cars. 2. Can be a great aid to relaxation. 3. Very effective cleaning agent. TESTS : 1. Pure specimen turns rosy pink when discovered in its natural state. 2. Turns green when placed beside a better specimen. HAZARDS : 1. Highly dangerous except in experienced hands. 2. Illegal to possess more than one, although several can be maintained at different locations as long as specimens do not come into contact with each other. more

Open Question: Something i wrote, any good?

1 “Where are we going?” I asked my mom as she pulled out of the driveway of our little Arizona house and started down the barren streets. It was silent, except for the music playing from my headphones that now lay on the ground. “Away. Callyn, we are leaving this sad excuse for a town.” Her voice shook, and I knew she had been crying. Even though my mother was the bravest woman I knew, I wasn't’t surprised she was having trouble controlling her tears. I closed my eyes and memories over took my mind, with the ferocity of exploding light bulbs. It was four weeks before, the week of my moms birthday. I remembered picking the phone up and hearing the cold voice of a man, asking for my mom. He was calling to tell us that there was a body found in a fire at Fort Huachuca, the army base in Arizona. Several men died, most bodies burned beyond recognition. Except for one, only one man wore a dog tag that melted into the charred skin. Ember Hawk, they said. My brother had died in a measly kitchen fire, even after all of that preparation they had supplied him with. He knew how to survive a war, but not even all of the training in the world could keep his soul from being collected when his time came. I heard a clinking sound and realized I was unconsciously playing with the dog tags he had given me when I turned 8. It was a matching set, mine and his. Looking at the shiny silver chain I immediately knew where we were heading. “4265 Raleigh Drive, Pinedale, Wyoming.” I said softly as the car jerked to an abrupt halt before returning to its original pace. “Where did you learn that?” My mothers voice was hard. This was the one voice I had learned to be careful about when I was little. When I heard her talk this way I learned this was the time when I should really be afraid of my mom. I decided to tell the truth. “I-I found a box in your room. It looked like a jewelry box, and I was looking for my earrings, but when I opened it, I found…. Letters. Hundreds of them. I somehow remember that was the address labeled on each and every one.” My voice became inaudible. I remembered tearing open letter after letter, pouring over them for weeks. None of them had been signed, but each contained a dried flower, with names that didn’t exist. Moonlace, Winterbloom, Taraflower, that kind of thing. They were prettier than anything I had ever seen in my life, and I remembered spending hours imagining my mother walk down the shore with flowers in her hair, all traces of worry disappearing as she laughed. Sometimes a man would appear in my fantasies, but i had always removed him, because i knew that the love letters she had found had to be fake. “Did you read them?” “Hmmm?” I asked absently, still lost in thought. “The letters?” She nodded once at me. “No.” I lied. She released a breath I didn’t know she was holding and continued to drive in a steely silence. I decided to stop asking questions and curled up uncomfortably in the sticky leather of the seat. I wondered for the first time who lived at the address shown on the envelopes. My mom would have most likely put down a relatives address or something. I had never met any of my family or left the state. Mom had always been nervous about that kind of thing. I stifled a yawn and it dawned on me that I was having trouble keeping my eyelids open, and every time I blinked it took longer and longer to open them up again. My fatigue won over, and I found myself sleeping deeply. THIS IS A FIRST DRAFT!!!!!! I just wasnt sure it was intresting...... i really want this writing piece to be good because i really love the plot line, but it is supposed to be kind of slow in the begginning. Please tell me what you HONESTLY think,and any tips would be great :) more

Open Question: I don't know what I should do, I think I'm always left out?

My best friend and I have been friends since first grade and now we made sort of a group with more people, but my best friend acts like a really sh*tty 9 year old; she's the most touchy person I've ever met, she's really annoying at times and she is really selfish, she also thinks that she's the most miserable person in this world because her parents got a divorce when she was about 3, mine did too because my dad cheated on my mom and no one actually ever told me about it, I had to find it on my own and I don't act like Bella Swan with such a "woe is me attitude". She doesn't care for people in the world, she doesn't care about poor and homeless people, she doesn't care about people in Haiti or in Chile but she's still the most miserable person in the world. Everything I tell her ends up in a discussion, she copies me for everything I sued to say and do that I don't say bor do anymore. I sort of got addicted to the word pathetic and she calls "pathetic" everything even if it doesn't have to do anything with the word pathetic, and then she gets the credit for MY jokes and for MY phrases. For example, once someone asked "If you could be anyone for one day, who would you be?" she first said Avril Lavigne and I said; "I'd be a combination of Bruce Lee, Chuck Norris and Jebus to create an impossibly strong creature with water-walking skills, then the world would explode due to my sheer awesomeness" about a month later, she said she out of nowhere she would be the same person (combination?) I got addicted to Green Day, she did too. I got obsessed with Billie Joe (the singer) and she did too. Then all the girls in our group (no boys in our school) say "OMG Anna you're like really awesome and cool and omg you're so funny you make me laugh so much!!!" and they never even look at me. I'm changing into a different school next year because girls surrounded by girls really turn into b**ches... I'm just sayin. But then my best friend wants to go to the same school I'm going to, but I don't want her to, she follows me around everywhere I go, she's always like "Can you come with me to the restroom? PLEASEE PLEASE PLEAAASE...." If I ask for a hamburger, she does too, If I change it for a hot dog, she does too. She's also really pretty and I'll admit I'm jealous because she gets all the guys evern though honestly she's not the smartest person in the world. She has around 200 friends at habbo and then she uploads pictures of Charlie the Unicorn and tags me and her friends and then I'm all left out because they keep talking about the staffs and things I don't care about, then I say something and everyone ignores me. Not to mention that my dad is always "Wow you got taller than my daughter your so skinny and pretty and blah blah blah" and yes, she's taller, skinnier and prettier than me in conclusion and she gets everyone to love her even if she acts like a total idiot. I don't know what to do, I'm just really tired of them because she's not a good friend and they're all pretty boring, and then there aren't really any girls I would get along with.... what should I do? more

Open Question: What happens to you in present-day America if you have both conservative and liberal viewpoints?

I mean, it must make some people's heads explode if they can't neatly categorize you as a "liberal" or a "conservative." I get liberal idiots who like me at first when they hear that I support health-insurance reform, love France (and have lived there), believe America should open relations with Cuba as we did with Communist China and that public transport is a good thing. They become angry when they hear that I support the Second Ammendment and that I believe abortion is homicide, and that political correctness and speech codes are an abomination. The right like me when they hear that I am not an atheist, hate our sleazy, trashy popular culture, support gun rights and won't vote "pro-choice," but accuse me of being a socialist when they hear that I think that our health-insurance system is bad in the long run (prevents the foundation of small businesses and self employment for those with pre-existing conditions), and that I really like our allies France and Canada. Hmmmmm....is it possible that there are other people who also have a mix of liberal and conservative ideals, but in today's society we can only be one monolithic entity, i.e., a pure conservative or an across-the-board liberal? No space for nuances, eh?What do you mean by "being in the middle," on health-insurance reform, I'm a raging liberal, on abortion and gun rights, I am an iron-clad conservative; on gay rights, I'm a liberal; on our grotesque popular culture today, I am a conservative. I feel differently on individual issues because I think them through. more

Open Question: What do you think of these lyrics?

I feel I come from better senses But its deep in my mind I forgot Now im trying to uncover senses And my minds exploding the same time Getting past all the basic knowledge Now deeper into my secrets Tearing my mind apart by thought Scattering everything to the side Now getting deeper into stranger places Strangers and words I don't understand Places I don't remember seeing What are these strange chapters in my life Worrying deep in my mind I'm lost now My body still and paralized Trying to get out of my mind Deep in my own thought running in circles Runing up and down millions of aisles Cannot escape now I'm trapped Keep searching for my senses Now I'm heading into dangerous places Lurking into twisted thoughts My dreams and nightmares come cross Now I'm facing my wishes come true My surpressed memories and disasters coming back Memories of the lost and forgotten Images of the past Black and white scenes of the womb The bright light I crawl to Now I'm in this world all confused Don't know what to do Coming closer and closer, I can feel it I'm getting stronger and being filled with wisdom I found my senses, collecting each one Still trapped in my mind, now I know what to do Breaking free out of my prison I ascend to the sky Making peons of clouds and mountains I can see all from the heavens above I am deep in outter space now Breathing easily Body relaxed and driven by the flow of the universe Floating in unknown regions Just breath easily, and let all this flow in It is clear to me now I have reached where none have gone On with my life to wherever the universe leads me I have passed bounderies unknown Break unbreakable Now there is no more flows of madness One with my mind and able to call my own Will on command One day I will return, teach the ways Stop all the pointless madness Everybody in understanding work together to go further But for now, I will let the universe take it's course And take me where it may Just relax and and stay in touch Breath easily, and let all this flow in Tell me what you thinkI listen to a lot of metal, and lyrics to metal don't usually rhyme, so leave the rhyming out and tell me what you think more

Voting Question: Should I find closure if my relationship ended in an explosive and unresolved argument?

I need some help guys. My relationship with the guy I've been with for 5 months has ended, and it ended bad and explosive. First of all, my guy doesn't know how to communicate AT ALL. If there is a problem in the relationship that I try to bring up he either laughs at me for feeling the way I do or says he has to leave. When I ask him what he feels or thinks he says "I don't know." I don't know seems to be his answer to EVERYTHING. When we are together and we get in an argument he automatically closes off and physically leaves. I try to get him to stay and talk and he says things like "get out of my way", "I don't want to talk", "I need to leave". He leaves, I won't contact him, and then a few days later he'll call or text me like nothing happened. At this point I'm just so happy to hear from him that I don't want to push him away again by bringing up the argument that made him leave. SO, our problems always go unresolved and never, ever talked about. Lastnight he came over, it was the last night I could spend with him because he's leaving for training all the way across the country for 4 weeks. To top it off, he's leaving 2 days before my birthday. And the story goes like this... I'm standing in my kitchen looking at my cell phone when I see his phone charging right next to me. The other night I saw him flipping through his text messages and I see a text message from a girl that he use to be intimate with, I decided to just forget about it but with the phone in front of me I got tempted to see what that was about. So, I pick up his phone and flip to that recent text message from that girl and she is saying that she misses him and loves him. My guy catches me looking at his phone. He walks out of the house and comes back inside and tells me he's leaving. Mind you, he looks through my emails and text messages all the time when I have asked him not to. And we both have some major jealousy and trust problems. I have found pictures of another girl he use to date that he receieved while we were together and she still sends him emails and messages on facebook. I have seen messages he's gotten from 2 different girls he use to date as well. Anyway, I'm upset because I want to talk about it and he wants to leave in a rage knowing I won't see him for 4 weeks. So, I try hugging him and kissing him asking him to talk to me and he starts telling me to move and get out of his way, there is no way he is staying. We are in my bedroom and he starts yelling my roommates name, to come help him cause I was trying to get him to stay by standing in near the door. I get so frustrated and sad that I take whatever is in my pocket and threw it at the wall as hard as I could as I'm yelling at him. I pretty much exploded after having to hold everything in, all my feelings and emotions. I kept saying what the f**k is your problem, you have issues, you're such a f'ing this and that, you don't know how to communicate, you're such a pu**y, a little b*tc*. I went off in a complete rage. He walked out of the house. Texted my roommate to come down and bring him his things which included clothes, and the birthday present he got me. My roommate tells me as he was driving off he said "It was really good to meet you." I know it's over, I know lastnight was my fault but I know it's more than last night. I'm upset too for everything that has happened and how I've had to bottle everything up, I'm embarrassed and sad for looking at his phone and calling him names. I know he won't call. Do I leave it as this? Do I apologize? Do I call? Text? I don't know what to do... more

Voting Question: I cannot stand the stress and pain of living any more. Why bother?

I am only 15, but I feel so much pain...no one thinks that I could possibly be so upset because they think I have nothing to be upset about. My life is not horrible, but at the same time, they don't know the half of it. I just dread getting up every morning. I just want to go to sleep and not wake up... I cannot stand living and I think the world would be better off if I was dead...my best friend says that he (I am a girl, but my best friend is a guy) enjoys talking to me and helping me when I am upset, but I am hopeless. I am always painfully upset and It is taking its toll...(I once described it as feeling like my head was going to explode, but there was no physical pain). No one knows about my depression except my best friend (and he doesn't even know it all) because no one would take me seriously because I always put on a happy face and my parents just yell at me when I cry... I am so lonely (and apparently selfish because I still feel lonely even though I always have my best friend's support)... I just can't take it any more...Why should I bother? What is the point of living when all I can feel is stress and pain? more

Voting Question: Lying to my parents...?

First of all, I AM NOT A BAD KID!!! i dont get into trouble often and i actually feel bad when i have to lie to my parents. the thing is tho, i've been suicidal for a long time, and i have been lonely and sad since i wa ten. there are only two people who can make me feel better and i know for a fact that they loved me... but because of a misunderstanding, my parents wont let me see them. i've been caught talking to them so many times and each time the consequences have gotten worse. i've tried to talk to them about the misunderstanding but they refuse to listen. even other adults think they're being unreasonable.and lately my depression has gotten really bad and i have no one to turn to except for two people im not even aloud to talk about. right now i have a plan to see one of these people- i tell my parents im seeing a movie with a mutual friend and since they wont be home i can just have one of the people i cant see pick me up and take me to their house. if my parents want me to text them i can just have the friend text my parents and pretend to be me, so the text comes from my friends phone. ive got a lot of the details down (like that), and im almost sure they wont find out, but im still terrified. i need to talk to someone i love before i explode and this is the only way to do that... but if i got caught it would just get worse =[ is it worth lying to my parents? and how can i actually get away with the lie? what i mean by that is... what are some other ways i can be found out and how can i get around them? and IM NOT A BAD PERSON. im just desperate. more

Voting Question: Should we stay split or get back together?

I'm going thru a tough time right now. Me and my ex split up 6 months ago. I broke up with him just cos i felf trapped and was starting to get bored in the relationship...in the end i was feeling like his mother rather than his girlfriend (we have 4 year old son together) ...i thought i would be better off on my own...I was fine for the first 3 months but lately i'm questioning whether i should have tried to work things out. I'm 28 and live in a small town with no nice men and have not been with anyone since we split..and don't really have the interest in meeting someone new either. So basically i don't know if i am really missing him or just miss being with someone or is it bcos i know he is seeing other people and i'm jealous cos i feel like he's mine. I want to have another child in the future and i'm worried i will never meet anybody else. All i wanted in life was "the happy family" i hate that my son will grow up with seperated parents. Does anybody think things could be worked out or should we just stay seperated?? I know the problems that we had would need to be rectified before we got back together. Would relationship councelling help?? Sorry for all the questions but i feel like my head will explode :( Also it wouldn't be easy for us cos my family don't like him since we split and i have not talked to his family either...i didn't fall out with them but i just didn't see the point in calling to them cos i felt we had nothing to say to each other and my ex brings my son every day to there house so they see him all the time. P.s I think he would give it another chance also he was my first serious boyfriend and vice versa Thanks to everyone who took the time to read thisHe took the split bad and acted like a prat and was saying stuff to my son that he shouldn't have thats why my family don't like him since we split. I had it out with him and he doesn't say anything to our son anymore. And yes i am questioning do i love him or not thats why its so complicated. We were together 6 years. If i had a magic wand i would make everything work out for us cos i can't imagine myself being with anyone else. more

Resolved Question: Any one who has read the Outsiders?

ok well im writing an essay on dallas winston a character in the book the outsiders and i would just like to no what you think of my essay and what grade you would give. also if i could improve on anything please tell me because i would love some feedback. thanks.. also i haven't really written much on my conclusion because im not sure what to write .. Dallas Winston Essay : The novel ‘The Outsiders’, written by S.E Hinton is about teenagers growing up in the early 1960’s. This book is based on the ongoing conflicts between the Social Class or Socs and the Greasers. One of the main characters in this book is Dallas Winston, also Known as Dally. Dally is a 17 year old boy who is from the streets of New York. He was first arrested at age 10 and then went on to become a very violent and dangerous person. Ponyboy describes Dally as having “an elfish face, with high cheek bones and pointed chin, small, sharp animal teeth and ears like a lynx”. He is considered the “tough guy” of the group and is said to be “The shade of difference that separates Greasers from Hoods” (page 13). Dally is also a very cold person and doesn’t seem to care about anyone, except Johnny. Even though Dally is the opposite of Johnny he seems to have a soft spot for the boy and always looks out for him. Ponyboy says that “Dally didn’t die a hero, he died violent and young and desperate” (page 187). This statement made by pony boy is true as Dally had always been “tougher, colder and meaner” than the rest of the greasers gang. He also loves to defy the law and had a large record with the police. Dally also believed that it was important to be tough and mean so that you would never get hurt. But despite all of the bad things dally was smart and well respected. Ponyboy also said “but Johnny was right he did die gallant” (page 187). This statement is also true. Even though Dally was cruel and aggressive he was brave. After Johnny had killed Bob the two boys had gone straight to dally for help. Dally had given them a way out of the mess that they had caused. This was money, a gun for protection and a place to stay. Dally did this without any regret even though it could mean he could be put in jail. He had also saved Johnny and Ponyboy after they ran into the burning church to save the children stuck inside. Although Ponyboy had climbed out the church by himself Dally, hit him and stop the fire on his back burn through to his skin. Dallas then went back inside the church a pulled Johnny out as he had fallen unconscious after a piece of timber collapsed on him. There are always going to be good and bad things inside a person. If emotions are never shown then they get bottled up inside until one day you explode. Dallas Winston is an example for all teens that being “the tough guy” isn’t always the best idea. more

Voting Question: Metal abuse from father?

I've had a really difficult childhood with my dad constantly yelling at and mentally abusing my mom ever since I was a little kid. This has been going on for 16 years now and I just can't stand it anymore. He always cheated on my mom while he was still married to her for many, many years and the constantly fighting between my parents has had mental impacts on me... I find myself depressed at times and used to have series of panic attacks a few years back. I also found it hard to show my emotions in front of other people and just generally talk to someone because the yelling and screaming at my mom everyday, who I love dearly, has had such an impact on my emotional stance and self-confidence. I am in the worst situation right now... my parents are now "separated", but my dad always degraded my mom to the point where she never got a normal job and has been unemployed for a while. She's currently studying to be a nurse (another 2 years) and is and has been completely dependent on my father for money. He has often made threats when I was little and used that control over us. I just CAN'T take it anymore, I just want to straight out punch him and never see him again in my entire life, but then we'd be left with no money. I've also never really told (but acted out) my father what I think of him, should I just take the stance and tell him everything? I just feel like if that happens it won't end well and I'll be in an even worse situation since he lives here. There have been a couple of times where my anger just exploded at my father and ended up with the police coming. I can't live like this. I'm passing all of my classes in school, but I feel like I could do much better if I wanted to, I'm just emotionally drained and stressed out everyday. I suppress my emotions and I just cannot do anything about it. I've seen a counselor for a few years earlier but that didn't help me. He acts like an animal and I've been reading his text messages and have seen that he is going out with 4 different women, all who are in their 20's and 30's. I think he is an undiagnosed psychopath Can anyone PLEASE give me some advice on what to do? It has just been too much on me and has ruined my entire childhood. My mom has been trying so hard to get out of this situation, and briefly did for a year when my father moved in with another woman, but he ended up coming back because she kicked his ass. I don't feel like I can live another 2 years in this situation more

Resolved Question: Left abusive husband. Now Mom's offerin unwanted advice on how to raise kids. How do I take care of this nicel?

I left my abusive husband and now raising three kids ages: 3, 2 and 3 weeks old. The 3 and 2 year old kids are boys and they fight constantly. The 3 year old one has gotten to the point where he tells me to shut up, talks back, balls his mouth up like he is about to hit me (he did a couple of times), and throws things at me and his brother. I left husband because I just had a c-section and he hit me in the face and was about to keep me in my stomach (where stitches are) until he realize that he could have killed me. I told him to get out. I seriously believe he is cheating anyway. My mom constantly offers advice on how to raise the kids and makes me feel like a loser. She (in so many words) says that I am not doing a good job raising the kids alone and need her help. She is a sickly and can't do anything but sit around on the couch because she is so tired (she has kidney failure and has to have dialysis three times a week), so how can she babysit. I wouldn't even think to put the burden on her. Matter of fact the way she is telling me to raise the kids is the complete opposite of how she raised me and my sister and brother. She used to beat the crap out of us. She plays favorites with my oldest son...she says he is her heart. That hurts me because she should love them all the same. But if one of the other kids cries or gets hurt (my kids or my sister's) she won't care. But if it is my oldest son, she goes crazy. She gives them candy and snack at inappropriate times. She came over and I was making breakfast and she brought a bag of cheetos and started feeding them the junk before they could eat. She gives them candy at ANY time. Even when I say no, she will slip them some. Everything I am teaching them, she is unteaching and training them to her liking. I let her come over because I don't have any other help with the kids. My sister doesn't really want to help and other family members barely even call...so she is the only help I have. I am trying to keep peace, but I feel like I am going to explode. This is wearing me down...I just had a baby, but I am back to doing regular household chores, carrying babies, chasing them to feed them, etc. I am starting to break down too. My mom says she fears that I will have a nervous breakdown because I am always hurting, breathhing very hard, having anxiety/panic attack, stomach hurting and breaking out in boils now. I am overwhelmed. I see a doctor on Tuesday. more

Resolved Question: My mom gives advice about how to raise kids and I don't want her advice. How do I tell her to stop nicely?

Voting Question: I woke up and start thinking about something and now I feel my head exploding?

about 20 years ago although my husband had a good salary but we had no place to live, my husband lived in his mom and my kid and me were in my mom's. then we bought this house, my mom paid the half, I paid 1/6 of it from the money that I received after my dad passed away and my husband paid 2/3 of the money from the money we saved during several years. half of the house is in mom's name and half for my mother in law (not even his name, I don't know why). when I told my husband why doesn't he register my part on my moms name, he said that if something happens to my mom he doesn't wan't to confuse my brother and sisters ( my mom is more than 10 years younger than his mom)...at the time I was happy I could live in my house. last year he said he wanted to sell the house to buy a new one, my mom accepted to buy his share and she paid it fully. although he got all the money but he doesn't do anything officially, he says what if we wanted to sell or do something then we have to do all the work again (pay tax...). I live separately from him for 5 years and the house is unoccupied all this time ( he doesn't bother to give it for rent and my mom lives in a city far from there). he didn't pay for his child in 2 years and says he doesn't have...I am so angry, mad at my mom for giving him money and saying that she trust that ....who ruined my life. this caused us many fights, he said to me why don't I trust him. how could I trust someone who ruined my life. more

Voting Question: How do I deal with my difficult mother?

My Mom had so many mood swings. One day she was very loving, and another day everything we did irritated her and she would yell, nag and complain. Granted, divorcing a alcoholic druggy and raising two kids on her own wasn't a walk in the park. I was always walking on eggshells and to this day I do anything to appease her so that she will not raise her voice at me. I put myself through college, I have a great job and I just bought a house on my own...and I am a 28 year old woman. When my Mom came to visit me for a week, it turned into a month and a half. It was misery...screaming matches, arguing, crying...The entire time she criticized the way I did things with my house...bludgeoning her points over and over and over....and it wasn't until I gave into her that she was happy and stopped yelling and nagging. She criticized my boyfriend the ENTIRE time and blamed every single thing that went wrong in the house on him... if something was missing, crooked, broken...it was my boyfriend's fault. Now my boyfriend is no construction worker but he was there everyday helping in the ways he could. He helped me paint, put together all my new furniture without me even asking, bought a circular saw to cut/install my moulding and anytime I need help with anything he rises to the occasion without question. On a visit shortly after that she started criticizing him again and called him a 'sissy-boy' 'f'ing faggot boy', 'piece of shit', 'good for nothing', 'poor excuse for a man'...and then some. She is obsessed with hating my boyfriend and it seems she will not stop until I give in to her. My step dad has also been having problems with her. She starts fights with his parents (who they live with) and thinks they are conspiring against her. My mom hasn't worked in years because she has pain from an injury she sustained at work but she seems to be able to work in her garden all day and dance all night when they go out with their friends. When my step dad suggests that a job would be good for her depression..she explodes with anger at him. My step dad is so patient but appears to be at wits end and I think my Mom thinks that if their marriage breaks it will be ok because she can always live with me. I will shoot myself in the head (figuratively) if that happens...it can't happen! but I know if it came to it she would lay the guilt in HARD. I don't know what to do, she is getting worse and worse lately. She is so judgmental, paranoid and negative. She criticizes EVERYBODY..but herself!!! It's really hard to be around her. She use to be tolerable but now I am starting to think she is developing some serious mental problems like bipolar, persecution complex, paranoid personality disorder, etc... She does have anti-depressents but she stopped taking them and refuses to take them. I live in SoCal and she lives in NoCal so I am not close enough to facilitate physical help. I don't know how to deal with her and what to do when the time comes and she asks to come and live with me....help!!!! more

Resolved Question: What do you suppose i do with my life?

O.k. so im 18yrs old going on 19 on may 7th i dropped out of high school becuz it was pure hell and i got tired of struggling i got tired of coming home crying and i got tired of feeling suicidal. So to recieve stress i dropped out in the beginning of 12th grade i know i was pretty close and i was right at the door but i couldn't hang any longer i was holding on to my last finger on the rope. So now that i've been out of school for a while im back trying to get my GED but the center is across town i gotta take 2 buses just to get there. And in one day i pay $10 everyday just to get to school i know i could be driving by now but thats a whole another story. but anyways it takes forever for the buses to come i be standing at the bus stop for about 30-35mins and i hate that. It really irritates me all in the cold air freezing my a** off. so thats basically why I havent been goin to my GED classes in about 2 weeks. i just sit at home and listen to music, play on the web, eat, and take naps. i be lookin for centers that are closer to my area but no luck so far. i even look for jobs but no luck so far. ughhhhh wats a gurl to do i just eat and sleep my life away.i have nothing accomplished im depressed and stressed and my only cure is food. I gained 40 pounds in just 3 months i use to be real thin but i dont have to worry bout that no more. then not to mention i really wanna be an actress and i know the situation im in ..thats really impossible but i created a profile for hollywood audtions and some guy called and said i had to pay $120 just to auditon im like i dont have it no thanks uhhhg it just really pisses me off i gotta pay to pursue my dreams lol i can see if he said the cost of an airline ticket just to fly out to california he not saying nothing bout no airline ticket hes talking bout auditioning signs plwase hgelp me any suggestions i can do wit my life i just need sum advice and suggestions im about to explode here pleaseeee help me and give me some good answers here people if you dont wanna answer than just skip my question please dont be a smartass and tell me i dont use proper grammar or anything thats irrelavent to my question. im on edge here anything added will just make things worse thx. more

Resolved Question: what is wrong with me? i'm always in pain :( !?

ok i do not know what is wrong with me. both physically and mentally im always hurting. my heart aches my eyes hurt my head is exploding. ive been missing school alot i don't know why! I used to love going to school last year but all of a sudden im getting into trouble i have started getting very angry i throw chairs at the teacher i swear alot and ive been slitting my wrists i'm not emotionally unstable i just think im a bit mental (literally) it's beggining to scare me now what have i turned into? i feel VERY weak now i can hardly move i have scars everywhere and my stomach feels like a cave it's always empty yet i starve myself and i feel full. i have mood swings when i'm happy i am REALLY happy . when im sad i will burst out crying for no good reason. and when im angry people avoid me. i used to be a straight A* student now all i get are F's and D's if im lucky enough. have i got a problem?? oh and i hear things at night time i hear whispering in my room...sometimes i talk to them they listen to me and understand me. they are in my dreams at night and they are friendly people ! where they sent to me specially?? are they helping me or are they not?? does anyone else experience this? more

Voting Question: Life is a prison,Oh God let me out?

Life is a prison, Oh God let me out. No one to listen, To hear when you shout. Climb the walls of insanity, Ride the waves of despair. If you fall it don't matter, There's no one to care. Used to wish for a window, To see birds, trees and sky, But you're better without one - Stops you aiming too high. Watching freedom is painful, For those locked away. Seeing joy, love and happiness, Another price that you pay. Strong is good, weak is bad. Be it false, be it true. Your mind makes the choice, And enforces it too. Cell walls built by society, With rules to adhere. If you breach the acceptable, You had better beware. Hide the pain, carry on, Routine is the key. Don't let on that you're not, What you're pretending to be. Lock it all up inside you, How badly that bodes. Look out for that one day, When it all just explodes. Leaving naught but a shell, Base functionality too. But killing all else, That was uniquely you. So how do you grow, With a timebomb inside? Or how to defuse it, Without destroying its ride? You can't. more

Voting Question: How do i get over a guy if theres still a chance?

theres a small little chance wt this guy..but i dont think its enough. we both liked each other..and all of a sudden hes ignoring me for no reason..and i cant talk to him about it cause he want let me! like wat the heck? these are my felings for him..i think im in love.. i wanted to send him this the other day..i almost did..but i guess its a good thing i didnt..cause i havent talked to him in weeks and that would be weird to randomly send him this i guess. idk? this is what i wanted to send him: Okay so i need to tell you something. i've been seriously holding it in for the past 2 weeks and i dont think think i can hold it in anymore because if i do then i'm seriously going to explode! So here it goes. i miss you. i miss hearing your voince. i miss seeing you smile when you look at me. i miss everything about you and i can't deal a day without talking to you. i cant deal a second without thinking of my life without you, because it hurts too much =[ you're always on my mind. your stuck there like glue..and i've tried so hard to stop thinking about you and i've tried so hard to let you go, but nothing is working. i dont know whats wrong with me. i've never fell for a guy this way and i dont know why you're doing this to me. you tell me you like me, then the next day act like nothing happened? and then you ignore me the whole next week and the next! i need an explanation cause i cant think of anything. like what did i do. i need to know cause i just dont get how you can just forget about me like that, because i sure haven't forgotten about you. i dont think i can because i've tried everything. i'm not over you and i dont know when i will be but please stop doing this to me. i'm so hurt, you dont even know what you do to me =[ but ya.a.i think wat i need to do is get over him..cuz he told me he liked me..and then all of a sudden ignores me the next two weeks. ? idk wat his problem is..and idk wat to do..cause i cant even talk to him when hes ignoring me and he wont let me. ughh..wat do i do? and how do i get over this guy?? more

Resolved Question: Are conservative heads exploding today?

I mean a "GASP" the case of a Community Activist from Chicago who insists upon his right to own a handgun was heard before the U.S. Supreme Court today. How could a "community activist" (which all good conservatives know is code for evil ACORN member or supporter of some other liberal-leaning group ) from of all places CHICAGO.... be promoting an expanded 2nd Amendment right??? How could this happen?? I mean.... since all community activists are lefty libs with no souls... and nothing good ever came out of Chicago.... and this guy Otis McDonald is African-American.... exactly how many heads exploded when they realized that Glenn Beck's ENTIRE WORLD is imaginary and that the REAL world is far more nuanced than "liberals bad" ?? Just curious.... since I know that most of Beck's 3 million daily fans are home all day long.... and a good share apparently spend their days on YA! more

Resolved Question: sleeping pill side effects?

I'm taking Zopiclone and have successfully taken it on & Off, never for more than a few nights at a time, for about a year. When i first took it i sleepwalked on a couple of nights but after that had no major side effects. Last night though I took it and couldnt fall asleep. I dont think i was actively fighting it. After a while my head felt like it was going to explode, my arms and legs felt achy and twitchy, and i managed to get myself into some sort of semi-hysterical state. I was trying to tell myself to calm down or i'd never get to sleep but it was as though i had no control over my body! I eventually got to sleep just before 4. And got up at 7, and have felt like i have the worst hangover ever since. I really need a good nights sleep tonight, but i dont know if i should take the drugs. Anyone else experienced this sort of thing? more

Resolved Question: Is it safe to take N.O explode before 18? What supplements similar to it are safe?

it says on the bottle, "not recommended for the use of those under 18", It says its not reccomended,but it doesnt say its not safe.Ive heard of people who have took it before 18 and had no problems at all. Does it give you the same great mental focus every time you take it? please give me a good review and tell what the conditions should be for an athlete to take it before 18, any other suggestions are appreciatedit will give you the sustained and continual mental focus for a long time, if you take the right doses and take it on and off, month in and month off it will work great always. You just have to moderate it.Ive figured that out today more

Voting Question: help horse rears and very nappy getting dangerous?

have just got a horse well taken her from a friend who had similar issues with her,she very stroppy when in season was thinking of a magnesium supplement ,,she can be very nappy and rears often,,it can happen whenever,wherever,,,i hack out quite a lot with a friend who's horse is very calm,,she likes to be in front she very Business like and no such thing as a chilled hack im constantly in battle with her ,,when i want her to go on the grass verge she strops ,when i want her to go back on the road she strops,,she has started to rear with me,,i do stay on (just) ive taken to wearing spurs to push her forwards so she doesn't have time to stop and rear,but not always possible and sometimes she has to wait but she got no Patience at all,,rears getting quite high now,,worried she will go over with me,tried hacking on my own shes no different,,heard that turning tight circles good but not always possible on the road,,she has plain basic egg butt snaffle,,no martingale,,saddle check and back 2 wks ago,,teeth done,,she worse when in season,,am i to go back to basic with her,she great on the ground and when she in good mood she lovely ,hard work not novice ride but lovely,,she a Lipizzaner x 10yrs old,,former eventer,,help anybody please,,is she just being a moosy mare and how do i stop it,,dont want to give up on her,,,p.s please dont advise me to pull her over ,,or smash egg on her head,,or hit her on the poll,,,,i wouldnt even go there with any of those pearls of wisdom,,nor am i using a standing martingale,,think she would explode if i tried to strap her downi not novice rider my self,,40yrs old riding since 10,,sj ,cx & dressage,previously evented,,homebred 2 foals which i backed and broke myself which made nice all rounders,im a quiet rider steady soft hand and my aids are clear snd consistant im not it to brutality and never will be ive earned all my horses respect with patience and firmness,,owned variety of horse over the years,never had a mare as stroppy as this one more

Voting Question: I would like some help for my shy girlfriend?

my girlfriend is 15 going to be 16 in a month. I just turned 17, and were both sophmores in high school. we have ben dating for4 munts now she is a little bit big but not fat. she is also shy. But her shyness is attractive... im her second boyfriend, she seems quiet, and unhappy around me, yet at the lunch tabel she jokes and cuts up with our friend's, then after that she seems unhappy when were alone. she is eaisly embarriest. im not the type that is a good camedian, yet i dont wanna lose her by having the personality of a rock or do something that hurts her or makes her feel sad or that upsets her... is there anything i can do or say to her to confort her and let her know i care and respect her, and she can open up to me and trust me, also we have some long quiet phone calls. She is like my 2sd girlfriend also. While im not shy i used to be but i overcame it. im not affraid to speak my mind and im not easily embarrest. i dont really care when ppl think of me for the most point.. and getting into trobel doesnt bother me either. with this how should i go about earning her trust, having her open up to me, and get to know each other how do i tell ger no matter what she can tell me anything that myself does or anybody else does that upsetts her, and i will stop it or say something to the person. How can i improve myself to help her. because i dont wanna come off as being clingy, obsesive, controling. we was about to have our first kiss(Her idea) 3 times and something happened all three times, lastly the last thing i want to happen is we dont communicate or something one of us is holding back long enough filily it explodes and thats the end ofour relationship more

Resolved Question: tell em what you think of this weapon?

I talked to my Friend and he gave me a good idea. Im working on a war story set in the Future and need a weapon that would be researched that is powerful and dangerous, how does this sound with a mix of chemicals placed probably in a rocket, the chemicals form virus that causes psychosis, violent rage, insanity, heart failure, bleeding from the eyes and nose and ears and death. What happens is that the Poison rocket is fired into the sky, it explodes in the atmosphere and the other chemicals beside the Poison and a powerful pulse charge in the rocket cause an increase in moisture in the clouds and cause rain, or snow or some precipitation. as the rain falls it cvarries in it the virus which can be drinken or absorbed through the skin, meaing that every drop causes the sloders to go mad and die and no one knows why. the chemicals in the rocket can also be changed to work more as a corrosive acid properties to be used aginst armor. so could it work? more

Resolved Question: I slightly hate my best friend?

Hi Well, I'm 15 and im a girl (and so is she :P) Anywho my best friend really annoys me and can be really nasty and selfish. Like, she's always comparing herself to me and she'll get p*ssed off if I do better (like with exams and tests) she always asks 'what did you get?' and I never really want to show her cos if did better she make me feel guilty and keeps coming up with reasons for me doing better like, 'well I write smaller so there's not as much' (and she sometimes goes insane and starts stabbing her pencil case), but if she did better she acts all smug. Plus I'm really ill at the moment and will be for the next year or so and when ever i need to go home early she's like 'why?' in a really nasty tone, and she just thinks about herself and how I'd be abandoning her and she tries to make me feel like I'm not really ill and i'm just lying. And then she calls me lucky for being able to go home, but she has no idea how stressful it is for me. She just thinks of how it effects her. She can also be really violent and if something doesn't go her way she'll huff and puff and cry in the toilets until someone notices her!! There's so much more wrong with her but it's already quite long. I think it's mainly because of her parents, cos they put a ton of pressure on her to do well (like her mum told her on the day of results for exams, 'I want everything over 60%' whereas my mum says as long as I do my best it's fine) but even so I don't think it gives her the right to make me feel bad just to make herself feel better. I keep wanting to explode and punch her in the face but I know that if I do it'll just make things worse (especially since her family get special treatment cos her mum is very involved with the school and is like best friends with the head master) I have about a year and a half left with her but I don't know if I can manage. What can I do??? (Keeping in mind that she's incredibly over sensitive)Please do read it, I promise it's not boring!!! more

Voting Question: What do i have???????

Sinceearly in the school year, i've been having severe nonstop headaches that dont go away, no matter what i take. i have stomach aches that feel neither like cramps, like im going to throw up, or anything ive ever felt. i get dizzy frequently, the room will spin, i black out, and feel like im going to pass out. this is daily. it always feels like theres so much pressure in my head that its going to explode. i had vicious nosebleeds that would go for over an hour and id loose alot of blood, where i would stand over the sink and it looked like i turned on the fosset but red was coming out. i havent haid one in a while. ive felt really weak. i also have bone pains in the top of my hands, wrists, side of my hands, elbows, everywhere basically. my parents had me tested for leukemia but it can back good. they refuse to get me tested for anything else, i think this could be serious. i looked up my symptoms and only found it linking to AML but my prents had me tested???? i drink lots of water daily, im healthy weight wise and eat healthy. do you know what this could be? im really worried. more

Voting Question: What do you think of this?

Okay, don't hold back on the criticism. I want it all for myself >:) I'm 13 and I LOOVE to write :D. I want you to tell me what you think of this. I dreamed of it, don't ask me why or how but i had a dream about it. Lol. I watched out my window, the trees and cars flying past as this slow bus went like a snail. The humid weather of South Australia warming the bus increasingly. The chatting of my fellow school students echoing around the bus, giving me a bad headache. I had nothing in life. But I was still grateful. Sitting in the bus I felt alone, even if my best friend was next to me I felt alone. I knew I wasn't popular. I wasn't pretty. I was always a plain girl. I have red hair and big blue eyes. My skin is pale and I am an average 13 year old girls height. I watched everyone playing around and being stupid as I contemplated. Life sucked for me. My mum hated me, only when did I really need the help did she come to my rescue. My father doesn't talk to me. Only me and my best friend Rhea Crown. She has stormy gray eyes and raven hair. Pale skin and she is absolutely gorgeous. She was always happy, the only thing keeping me up in the sky. She always thought on the positive side. Never negative. I envy her family, she is always treated like a little girl. Someone normal. I remember having to go to her mum to ask about... Big girl stuff. As in the monthly features. No my mum didn't come to me then. I know she isn't my real mum, I have a feeling she's out there somewhere. But I just can't figure it out. The bus stopped and I felt it park itself, then the motor went off and the rumbling ended. “Come on.” Rhea said happily, I smiled at her joyous attitude. We're at a library and she's happy. I shook my head and smiled. “You're good to me Rhea.” I said and she grinned so big I thought her cheeks would hurt. “I'm glad to be your friend.” she replied, I scoffed. “Like I can offer you anything but friendship.” I said and she glared. “That's all I need.” she said, the glare still fixed on her face. But soon she smiled. Of course she couldn't stay angry for long periods of time. It's in her nature. But me.. I am happy with people I'm comfortable with, I get easily depressed. I can smile and joke around, but I go too far sometimes. I used to be a carefree child, full of hopes and wishes. But now... I'm a girl wishing for a family to love me. For hugs and kisses. For love and my wish to come true. But it never happens. I walked up the steps toward the doors and stood in front of them, waiting for the teacher to appear wherever she was. “Alright class, come on!” she said out of no where. I laughed and then walked up with Rhea on my heels. I looked around and spotted an aisle with adventure stories. I walked down it, Rhea still happily bouncing around me. “Rhea. Do you ever stop bouncing?” I asked her and she shook her head in time with her bounce making her look completely stupid. I sighed. “You really are a firecracker.” I said and she laughed. Trust me, never give this girl sugar. She explodes just like a firecracker only 10 times in size. Myself. I can get easily angered, get me angry and don't stand in firing line. I get frustrated and then lash out. I can hold grudges but I can't hold them long enough to say I'm really angry at the person. I feel guilty easily too. Of course that is how I act. I walked down and down the aisle until a book caught my eye. I stood in front of it, my fingers trailing down the spine. I grabbed it and then walked off with it in my hands. I opened it and stared, the words were moving! I gasped and dropped the book. My heart beating hard and fast. “What-” more

Resolved Question: I need help? (long, please answer)?

Right, I'm a 17 year old pre-op (that means before surgery and treatment) male-to-female transsexual with a confirmed diagnosis and everything and I'm on a waiting list to start treatment after I hit 18. Anyway, for as long as I can remember I've been quite a sexist jerk, I've looked down on women for a good while seeing them as dumb, weak and thinking they should just be slaves to men basically, my views have never been very nice. Guess it was just the environment I was brought up in. Anyway, I was rather late on realising i was trans, I realised at 9 and even though it wasn't and over night thing it happened in a flash, I was play GTA III (despite how unbelievable that is) doing the change character cheat and sommat just clicked in my head when my character change into a girl. I knew that was who I should be. For some reason my brain took this as right, you've had all these sexist expectations and views of women, well now you want to be a girl, it's only fitting you have these sexist expectations and views of yourself, only now i no longer have them of other women. Anyway, no understanding anything, between 9 and 14 i just suppressed my feelings, ignored wanting to be a girl, carried on with my sexist views and that. Finally after my final 'straight relationship' things got too much and I exploded, came out of the closet and about 3 months later got girlfriend who treated me like Lily. I explained to her that I had some sexist views about myself, infact to be honest, I totally look down on myself and any relationship I'm in, I make sure to date someone who's possessive and willing to dictate my life for me. My girlfriend was call with it anyway and it was the best 11months of my life, she treated me exactly how I wanted, she made me feel special and I knew she really cared about me. Unfortunately distance pulled us apart and we had to end it in the end. Eversince I dated that lass though, I've struggled being single, i've gone into an extremely co-dependent mode where if I'm not with someone and I don't have someone there dictating my life and someone there to love me, I get lonely and miserable extremely easy and fast and my mood spirals rapidly to be extremely low. I've mentioned this at counselling and to a therapist and they both reckon, it's nothing mentally wrong, just i've grown to enjoying having no control over my life and letting someone else take charge. And when I have that I'm happier than ever but when I don't I find myself extremely miserable. I need help keeping myself happy during the times I'm single?I had no idea where to ask this, I just figured this would be the best category as it's due to my brain having weird interpretations on how i should be treated.No hate answers please and no stupid answers saying I'm on drugs, the only drug i have ever touched is caffeine.I said I was sexist, sexist and hating are two different things, plus i'm no longer sexist towards other women, just to myself. I was brought up in a rather sexist environment though. more

Resolved Question: Free Image Recovery Program?

Okay, so. the other day while I was innocently taking photography and enjoying my camera, my memory card thought it would be funny to explode, corrupting over half my stupid images. in an attempt to narrow down the material so I'd have less to filter through while attempting to rescue the remnants, I scanned in some of the still-whole images and deleted them off my camera. but apparently my laptop decided it wanted to eat them. I've searched high and low and they have disappeared from existence. -dies- which means. Forgetting about the broken images because I'd saved the majority of them ahead of time, is now no longer an option, and I /need/ an image recovery program. I found the perfect one... but to get the actual images I'd have to pay like fourty dollars. which my family really can't be wasting right now, and I have twenty I earned today, but I'm donating it so that's not gonna work XD; So I'm trying to find a free one, but google only brings up demos, which are no help since even if they snag the images, I can't actually save or view them... does anyone know a good /free/ image recovery program? I found one but it only recovered three images and none of them were ones I needed :/ if you can help me you'll have my undying gratitude forever lD <3@slick_stick7 you=amazing. -hugs to death- thank you so much, Pandora was perfect. -dies- :D more

Resolved Question: what is better pre workout supplement?

i heard alot about both no explode an white flood i want to know which is better by better i mean which helps more, im not a lazy ass an i know its not a merical pill i workout atleast 1 hour everyday so im trying to get the best results i can right now i bench 120 (i know its not high) i weigh 150 an im 5"11 im a sophmore in high school i have about 3 months left in the school year my coal is to be able to get 135 before the end of this school year thanks everyone more

Resolved Question: The names of these kid pc games?

I remember playing these games all the time when I was little. And I like re-doing things I did when I was younger because it makes me remember all the fun times. I'm probably not going to play these again cause I'm 16 now. I might watch someone else play on youtube just to remember the sweet times. Anyway I can only remember little things in the game, objects, little minigames etc. Please post if you know any of the games I'm talking about 1. I remember this one most. This one is about a turquoise and purple dinosaur. Her partner was a terradactyl. You had to collect jewels (I think) then you had to find the eggs and hatch them with the jewels. Through out the game if you clicked on a dinosaur it'll show you a little moveclip to tell you facts/behavior/etc about the dinosaur. And then when you collected and hatch all the eggs a t-rex will show up then all the baby dinosaurs will escape the volcano they were hatched in. 2. This game had an owl-like character? Um.... I only remember one minigame where there was a puzzle and you had to save a cat that climbed up a tree/fence... There was a good person (policeman maybe) on one side and a bad person on the other. If you put the puzzle together right the good person will climb up little by little. If he saves the cat it'll run away and climb into a squirrel hole and be safe. If you put the puzzle together wrong the bad guy wins and captures the cat. It'll be locked in a cage in the sewer.... (That's all I remember) 3. There was a boy (I think he was blonde)...I think he had a dog companion There was lots of imagination and creativity in that game which I loved alot since I'm into art... I think it's a counting game. There were interactive moveclips. I remember some... One made me cry everytime I watched it so I didn't want to watch it much. A dog kept howling really sadly because he didn't have any food/treaties left. Then I would think I want to give the poor doggy food T.T The other clip was sort of like the twelve days of christmas song. A couple of wieners/hotdogs in a pan. I think they fry then explode till there are none left. Then there was one where you would click on bottles/containers, they will crash to the ground and then ghosts/spirits would come out of them. That clip scared me a little cuz I was like 5 or 4 so I didn't do that clip much. The game took place in this boys house. Lots of objects were interactive. There was a plate with beans and if you clicked on it they would jump. A mobile that would fall/turn if you click on it. Then there was some apple contraption that the boy would use (doing something with apples) A paper boat with nuns cheering on it (my sis says she thought it was Queen Elizabeth so I'm not sure) 4. This game I vaguely remember. I played it when I was like 2-4. A friend of my family has a 3 year old. And I wanted to recommend this game to that family cuz I remembered enjoying it at that age. I don't know what it's called. You played it on a tv with a videogame set up. There was a device that had four interactive buttons on it. I don't remember any characters (My sis thinks there was a mouse with a big nose) Please don't criticize me. I'm just trying to recall the fun times. There's nothing wrong with that. You don't have to be a jerk for no reason. I did nothing to you. Okay? So please, if you have a need to criticize save your criticism for something that matters.I know the first one isn't spyro the dragon :/ But thx for trying :) more

Voting Question: what would be the best supplement to loose weight,and a meal Replacement at the same time?

I need a supplement that is a meal replacement and good for pre exercise or something? i used to use no explode before a training session that felt great but that was not a meal Replacement. more

Resolved Question: my boyfriend has a stalker what to do?!?

I've been with my boyfriend for 2 weeks. I've met his family & he met mine. Things are going really good for us but he has this girl that wont stop texting him or hitting him up. Bad thing is shes a family friend so when we go to his sisters house she makes sure shes there to see us. She says stuff to his family like why is he with her he belongs to me & doesn't get it through her head that he doesn't want her. They used to talk before me & him got together but never did anything no kissing & no sex so I don't understand what her obsession. His family is on my side about this & always tell me when she talks about me. His sister also told me that she understands why I'm upset that she would feel the same. I'm getting really tired of her & I know I'm going to explode one day & end up punching her in the face lol. What can I do for her to get it & for her to leave him alone? Should I pull her to the side when I see her saturday for a baby shower & talk to her? Or leave it alone until she crosses the line?they have told her to let him go not to bother. i dont mind if shes there when im there plus she doesnt call before she goes she just goes over thats his sisters next door neighbor. hes told i have nothing to worry about but i cant lie & say it doesnt bother me sometimes & act like im not worried that he might cave in more

Resolved Question: Help!!! Boyfriend issues...PLEASE!!!?

We've been together for about 4 weeks now, and everything was going great...until this week started. I noticed these little things he wouldn't do anymore. Like he didn't say "Goodemornin baby","Hey babe, text me when you can" "Goodenight hun, have sweet dreams," he didn't even say "I love you" like usual, I mean it was all perfect, I was happy. And now, he completely ignores me. We'll text for a while then he just stops... And I'll try to talk to him but hell keep it to 1 syllables words like "Yeah, Oh, Kay"! This is sooo different because we could talk about anything for hours, and now...nothing! Id asked him before what was up and he said he was fine. And i asked if he had second thoughts on us. And he said "r u?" Me-"no!" Him-"Im not". It made me wanna cry because something was up and he was scarring me. He didn't even called me babe or baby... He's acting like he has no interest in me anymore. This whole week was horrible because I thought I did something to piss him off. And yesterday I just had it. I texted him "Okay like for real u need to tell me whats wrong cuz im not gonna try and make things better if u dont wanna be with me..." Him-"I was just kidding, I do wanna be with you, I promise baby I love you"!!!! WHAT!!!!! I was so mad! After that things went good from there, only for about an hour, then he just ignored me and acted like I was a hobo. I wanted to cry today in class because I dont know what to do! i feel like theres something he aint telling me. Im sooo confused... I know that was long, but please help me. i have to do something or ill just explode! I miss him and I really do love him. What do you think I should do?! more

Voting Question: Is there Nitric Oxide in NO explode?

I'm 19 and looking to build muscle. I know what Nitric Oxide does and am very interested. However, I'm assuming that NO stands for Nitric Oxide but it does not say that it contains it on the product's container. What is NO explode? Is it creatine too? Right now I'm taking Pre Load grape and it tastes awful and I'm looking to upgrade to a better one. Some one please educate me on this. Thanks. more

Resolved Question: Video card for around $100?

i used to have a radeon 4830. it started malfunctioning about three weeks ago and to make a long story short the manufacturer (MSI) can't fix it and are refunding me. which is odd since the 4830 is not some five year old card or anything. but that's what they are doing. I would buy another 4830 but they are no longer available. there used to be only the 4670, 4830, and 9800gt when i bought the card. but a whole lot of cards came out since then. now i can get one of the following: 1. radeon 4850 ~$110 2. geforce 9800gt ~$90 (older card, but it only takes one slot which is nice) 3. geforce gts 250 ~$100 4. radeon 4770 ~$100 5. radeon 5750 ~$130 (slightly more expensive but is it worth it?) 6. geforce gt 240 ~$70 (cheaper, will it sacrifice performance that much?) are there any more i'm missing? what is likely the better replacement? i have a core 2 duo based system and am not looking into putting in a 5970 to explode the computer into pieces for example. just something that will work okay until i buy a completely new system a year or so down the line. more

Resolved Question: my boyfriend is abusive, but I can't leave him, WHY?

my boyfriend was with his ex girlfriend for 11 years. he then started to date me about 6 months after the breakup, and said he was over it. bla bla bla, he left me twice for her, then finally decided he wanted to be with me. ok great. we moved in together in september, and then things got crazy. he pushed me one night because i told him his ex slept with one of his best friends, and i thought he knew. sorry. but then, he started doing things when he was angry like pulling my hair, bruising my arms, shoving me, and, the other night, bit my ear so bad it bled. he belittles me, calls me names, and calls me cheddar legs, and big nose, and zit face. i am 5'5 and 120 pounds people .. i don't have an ounce of fat on me. he wont let me listen to the music i want, hang out with friends, he won't work full time to have a better life, he is jealous, goes through my emails, won't let me talk about my past professional career as an athlete... I HAVE NO FRIENDS. I am 3000 miles away from where I grew up so I have no family, or friends, or anyone really but him. i know its wrong, hes killing my soul as well as physically making me scared of him, but i am so in love with him and am afraid of being without him. my dad wants to come get me, but we always talk about marriage, and when we have good times, they are amazing, but he gets so angry at me sometimes and just EXPLODES. i feel like IM the crazy one, and need to be his complete emotional support. the love is great, the pain is worse. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. more

Voting Question: Older brother looking for advice to cope.?

Hi i'm a Korean American, 26 and this is my first post here. I've been dealing with my two younger sisters off and on for the past 14 years. When they were younger it wasn't so bad. But now I feel alienated from them both. To be honest i'm not the be tough older brother, nor was I the most responsible one to set a good example. But they both grew up to not be like me which I am grateful for. But the problem is that now they don't respect me. My younger sister is currently away for school but the one I live with currently is well "aggravating." There are days, rare days when we get along. Have lunch together, talk, make fun. But most days I feel like i'm going to explode on her. These days its become harder. As a guy despite my past I own up to my mistakes, but with her i'm always at fault or I rarely do something right, she disrespects me in front of my friends and associates and treats me as if I were below her. My friends don't know what to make of her but are always in agreement that she is a "bitch". I personally don't appreciate this view but even she admits that she is a bitch which baffles me. It's almost as if she enjoys it. Relationship wise shes more the guy in the family, where as i'm the "princess" she calls me. (images of bashing in her face come in) I know deep down shes frustrated with a lot of things in her life. But for some reason i'm always to blame for her rage. She only remembers all the bad things I have done and never fails to bring it up in an argument, even if its an issue resolved 10 years ago. Most our fights revolve around her irritation with me not being able to do the little things which to her and the "rest" of the world seem common sense. EX: Last night I picked up the mail and brought it home. I noticed there was a parcel pickup ticket. So I left it with the pile of mail so I can go and pick it up today. She comes home and sifts through the mail and takes her mail. Today in the morning I mention the ticket and ask if shes seen it. Conversation carries on and she leaves for work and I tell her ill take care of it despite not having found the ticket. So I get ready and check my email when I hear her come back home. She tells me that she went to the post office and they don't have any packages for us (ok......) then she begins to drill me for information regarding the color of the ticket and so on. I tell her it was a blueish green ticket and the search begins. She keeps asking me the same question over and over again, and one thing that pisses me off is the way she "tells" people to do something. So she starts telling me to look in the trash (wtf...really..) While I look through the recycle bin with her she continues to project her frustration at me. She then begins to ask me if I read the ticket, when I said no...it was over..."how could you not read the ticket", I just didn't read it, I wasn't expecting anything, not my business, but I left it there so I can go pick it up. "Not your business?" ...and then old history of not my business come flying out, how stupid are you not to remember what the exact color was yadayada...you get the picture. Everyday its little things like this that blow up into a War...i'm tired of arguing with her...i'm so tired to the point where if she even opens her mouth in frustration once i'm defcon 2. I have been patient and i'm writing here to let it all out or else I fear the next time i'm going to break... more

Resolved Question: Have you ever heard of a talk done in schools targeting boys and issues like suicide, asking for help etc...?

There's no doubt in my mind that girls get tonnes of talks on "girls issues" including the usual "girls need a better education than boys because if you teach a girl you teach a village but if you teach a boy you teach an individual" ... and let's not forget the feminist specialty "male violence". But anyway I got these in school when I was young. But I never remember anything on masculinity and teaching boys it's ok to ask for help and not bottle things up and explode and things like suicide which definitely effects boys more. Why is this? Is it because of some Politically Correct "males are privilidged already" so the dont face any problems or is there are proper reason why theres not talks for males and masculinity? thanks. more

Resolved Question: PANIC DISORDER IS KILLING ME!?

So a couple months ago I started having what I believe is drug induced panic attacks. Every day I have a sudden pain or thought and I freak out. I think my veins will explode, I have an illness no one can find or that hasnt been thought of yet or that i will die! It's terrifying. The emergency room and doctors treat me as if im stupid and plainly tell me this is an emergency room for emergencies. I even recently got a letter with good reasons to go to the ER. Well, HEY IM SORRY ME THINKING IM DYING ISNT AN EMERGENCY! Anyways, I have panic attacks every day. Is there anything you can do at home to ease them or stop them? more

Voting Question: Help with my poem!!!!!!!!! please!?

I am really stuck and need some help! I really need some ideas on how to make this better. I would love to know where you get lost or thing that can be improved upon. I would love recommendations for word choice, showing better, Punctuation! (Please) and places that just need to be better! please DON'T hold back! I am like a dog plopped down on a dog bed after a long dar of chasing squirrels. I am sitting, more like lounging in a black leather seat pushed all the way back. Our black Ford truck's light expand out into the dark night. Ahead the road twist like a roller coaster. As we flyby, streets, empty and abandoned, houses, eagerly watching, the truck accelerates faster than the speed signs recommend. A straight section, feel the engine rumble, as my foot pushes, like a doctor keeping pressure on the wound, harder and harder on the accelerator. A light appears, far off, beyond the reach of the truck's light. A car, carrying two, passes us. We accelerate, approach another oncoming car, which skids across the dark pavement, like on a sheet of ice, a few yards away. Lights, span out covering the dark ground with a sheet of yellow. Flickering lights dangle out over the deserted road. As if about to fall. A third car approaches, a silver Range Rover, but it is not as fortunate. Bright white headlights penetrate my window and flood the black interior of the truck, blinding me. There was no horn, only squealing brakes and crunching metal. My eyes shut tight, the rope burns, slicing my neck. The seat belts against my stomach, like a corset continuously clenching. White opaque smoke, explodes like a bag of flour. Stagger, gasp, search for breathable air. Opening my eyes, I see. The deflated white sack that saved my life swings side to side against the dashboard, like a metronome keeping a steady beat. To my right I see. My door compressed like like an indented ping-pong ball. A tap, tap, tap on the still intact window made me jump. By : me more

Resolved Question: Chicken of the egg bipolar dilemma?

I had been trying to research if my current manic episode caused me to do something on Saturday or was what I did Saturday was what caused the mania in me. Ok since the last week of Jan and early Feb, I have been feeling on top of the world, I don't know if it is because I am transferring to my favorite university and its process which caused it or what. Regardless Saturday, I was having problems with some friends and my family was involved as well. I got up out of my room and just said in my head "enough is enough" and then I burst into severe psychopathic anger and pretty much insulted the crap out of my friends and family because I was done taking their BS and told them to stop their manipulations and other crap and would NOT take no for an answer in anything they said. Ever since then, I have exploded twice more on my family since they seem to be the closest people around in the past couple of days. I know my pdoc would know best, but what do you think caused the mania? Was it already on its way since I have been feeling on top of the world and really delusional for a good month now, which is supposed to be the premania stage OR was it just letting my anger get too far, which made me manic? Please I am just going crazy trying to figure this out (dont ask why, I just need to know) and I would love someone's advice or opinion on this. Thanks.I meant chicken OR the egg, sorry more

Resolved Question: Help. Schizophrenia? Bipolar Disorder?

This is going to be quite a long post. Please bear with me. Last year, July 29 I tried to kill my self with Valium in my condo near my college. I woke up 2 days later in a hospital. My father visited me(a surprise visit) and found me, he took me to the hospital. After that I had to go back home and take a leave on college (for a while until your OK, he promised me). I had been drinking a lot, smoking cigarettes and weed. I used other drugs like e and v's once in a while. I went to a shrink and they told me I had depression. They told me to stay with my family for a while and I was given some drugs to help with my withrawals from certain substances. They also gave me LEXAPRO for my OCD and depression. The thing is my environment here is making me just so much more depressed. My parents dont let me out of the house because their scared I might do something bad again. I spend my days on the computer, eating and sleeping. Its pathetic really and its not me. To make things worse I told my parents that I no longer want to attend our church ( Jehovah's Witness) and that I want to be disassociated from them. Because of this I dont think my father is ever sending me back to school. I think its just unfair because I was a very good student, and it reflected on my grades. I have a sister in college, awful grades, but they're OK with her as long as she take care of her "spirituality". The thing is lately Ive been becoming violent. I have violent thoughts, I hate everything around me. I want to kill my self again. I want to kill my father. I think its because Im a social person and being stuck inside our house( boring house by the way. my parents confiscated my gaming consoles and they took away the cable tv) I just cant stand not talking to anyone. To top things off, im getting anxious because, as I said im getting my self disassociated from JW's and theres actually a lot of pressure in doing so. I get paranoid a lot. Ive been interested in a lot of things that I know are going to get me into a lot of trouble lately. So yeah, I checked the internet for symptoms of schizophrenia and I actually have a lot of these. Like I sometimes like to believe I have powers and shit. Also as a kid I saw some things that I just know couldnt possibly be there. Lately I cant feel any emotion aside from anger and hate. I am rarely motivated to do anything. The thing is I dont tell anybody because I know its silly. But then again, bipolar disorder is in the family so Im not sure what it is. Im in a really tough spot here. I think Im going to explode one of these days. Can anybody help me? Especially with my anger Also could my environment be contributing to this? Appreciate the help. more