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Open Question: Jesus clearly stated he could not come of his own initiative at all....then how is he God?!?

(John 8:42-47) 42 Jesus said to them: “If God were YOUR Father, YOU would love me, for from God I came forth and am here. Neither have I come of my own initiative at all, but that One sent me forth. 43 Why is it YOU do not know what I am speaking? Because YOU cannot listen to my word. 44 YOU are from YOUR father the Devil, and YOU wish to do the desires of YOUR father. That one was a manslayer when he began, and he did not stand fast in the truth, because truth is not in him. When he speaks the lie, he speaks according to his own disposition, because he is a liar and the father of [the lie]. 45 Because I, on the other hand, tell the truth, YOU do not believe me. 46 Who of YOU convicts me of sin? If I speak truth, why is it YOU do not believe me? 47 He that is from God listens to the sayings of God. This is why YOU do not listen, because YOU are not from God.” more

Open Question: Omg :-/ I really cant stand it what should i do?

Please READ all of this... Thank you </3 I am in such a dilemma...there's this girl who I've spent this whole year with, and I seriously do love her, and she supposedly loved me too :( But i left to another country over the summer (i'm still there right now) and i'm coming back in like less than a month I noticed how she stopped texting me as much, and I asked her if she still liked me :-/ cause i was really frightened, and she told me how she felt like she was forcing herself to like guys, and that since she couldn't find a guy who is exactly compatible with her,she kindof made them fit together in her mind....if that makes any sense? she also said that she felt too young to be tied down by guys We are also like best friends, and I really appreciate and cherish her friendship ALOT, and above ALL, I would never want to lose that, Now I just remember all of the moments which we have shared, doing cute things together, once we were listening to a song, and she hugged me really tightly and told me that she was in love me...how she always gives me butterflies, how i felt soo wanted by her, how we would express our feelings mostly through songs how she would bombard my AIM with OFFLINE messages, telling me "where was i" "go online" "i miss you soo much" you this, you that, they were so cute, she would send me songs...tell me how much she loved me, and my heart would like truly sing everytime i would go online, it felt soo good, having someone who cared SOO much for you, and you having the same feelings for her...she would tell me how she wouldn't know what to do without me, and that she wouldn't be able to continue living without me..and honest to god, I felt the SAME WAY, i have NEVER in my life cheated on her, (oh btw, we never officially went out, but we truly did have something, we did everything a couple did for a whole year, but she would always tell me how she didnt need those labels "bf gf"...there isn't anything that we didnt do) but yea, i have NEVER looked at another girl, and i would always remind her how beautiful i really thought she was, she IS beautiful we would break night talking to eachother on school days, we would talk until like 4 am in the morning...but now, im lucky if i could get her to IM me first with a " Hii" from i go online, i always have to say the first greeting, before, i would feel like she would count the seconds for me to log online....now she doesn't even notice me :( i'm lucky if i could get a 7 word response from her, it's usual all so brief, and only filled with "lol" or "lmao," it's like she's too busy for me, that's how i feel, i know she's talking to other guys (MOST OF THE TIME), something tells me she is, because i remember how much we would talk with eachother, and even though she says she doesn't want to get tied down with guys...she's always talking/flirting with guys...and they do the same with her she tells me everything, and so do i (to her), and she always tells me how different guys like her, and how she has a crush on them too...and how this guy kissed her, and she went along with it...she went to tell me that i was still the best kisser :-/ and she also told me how this guy (who she has a crush on) also kissed her (it's tap btw), and how it wasnt how she expected it.... but above all of this...it bothers me how she lets them kiss her....even after all we've been through :-/, i think that whenever she's too busy to talk to me, she's sending 100 im's per minute to some other guy she might like.... and i'm just caught in the middle of all this shit :-/ like WTF....you don't know how hurt i am, what happened to "all the love" ???? like i know it couldn't have been a lie... like wtf...is she confused? it kills me....every second of her not smothering me...the thought of another guy kissing her, her possibly getting butterflies from another guy....it all bothers me :-/ i want her to be MINE....but i dont want to bother her with no more LOVE pleads because i don't want to lose our friendship....but i really miss all of the attention...i miss her :-/ alot....btw i've been gone for less than a month Does ANYBODY know what I'm going through? It's really Hard... Can you explain to me what's happening??? Is there any hope for a "us" again???? What should i do? How should I react? I recently told her (after she asked me how i was feeling) i told her that i just want to be happy, and most importantly i want HER to be happy, and that i was a little hurt... I didnt speak my whole hurt because she takes things really personally, and always blames herself :-/ and i dont want her to blame herself (even though it probably kinda IS her fault), i really do want her to be happy we recently talked, IM'ed each other more

Open Question: can you translate it in spanish???if you cant its okey i know it is too long!?

I find trying to explain myself exhausting but here goes. people who meet me might see me as two different people depending on the circumstances in which we meet. . I'm painfully shy at first and self-conscious,reserved, repressed. But the other half of the time...I'm a loud, outgoing,frank,loving,sweet,caring hyperactive, happy-go-lucky and not drunken of a human being(ang moreact kiat!!!)^_^. I only ever lie about things that are inconsequential, or in order to protect someone I love. Ask me something that means something, and I will always give you the most blatantly honest answer my brain can muster. I don't play mind games. I like understanding people.because I want to understand EVERYONE. I love my family and would do anything, even give up 60% of my liver, to help any one of them. I'm a silly bastard, but a serious woman. My heart bleeds for everyone, no matter how hard I try to learn that some people might be beyond compassion.. I also enjoy staying at home chillin coz Im a laid back type of a woman, watchin tv, eating junk foods, watching pictures in fs,fb listening to music, thinking (.........).. Sleeping :) Im a very simple person, not to complicated to analyze or understand, very easy to be with. Jolly and Happy 99% of the time :) I trust everyone that doesn't give me a super-bad vibe until they're proven untrustworthy. And even then, I always give second chances. I envy eloquent people the way most envy the rich, beautiful and powerful.. I watch Zombie movies because zombies are the only supernatural creature that I have recurring nightmares about that make me want to pee my jammies in fear. Im also spiritual .. Though im not that religious.. like i dont hear mass every sunday ( but i do try ....).. yet I have my personal relationship with God ( I talk to him a lot.. day, night while walking, when i dont have anyone to talk to, when im bothered about somestuff or who i really am and what am i here for and all those existential questions that you'll never really know until the day that you die.. =)... Anyways.. I love to eat and i basically eat anything with a few exemptions ( like sinugba, who ever discovered that sinugba is edible is so unforgivable).. =) , I always make sure that i get to relax and have fun with anything that i do from everyday... I hate stress and problems ( though i know you can't avoid them )... Life is very simple for me.. so i try not to make it complicated.. I just live each day at a time, living as if it were my last, .. I dont worry about problems which haven't happened yet.. Coz its worthless and irrelevant to think about them now? and i believe every problem has its solution all you need to do is HAVE FAITH CHILL OUT and RELAX and evrything will fall into place.. sometimes we just have to learn to accept things as they are.. coz that's the mysticism of LIFE... ( Or else you'll really go nuts... )and most of all i love my family and ill never leave them tell the day i die....if u get a chance to know me its really my pleasure to welcome you as my friend and also i believe I have a good sense of humor in a different way..bonding with me more and you;ll see!!!im not living with a dream but deep inside still have a hope that there is a White Prince on Black Chopper : ) more

Open Question: Another sad late night story?

Last one for tonight, thanks for reading! Please give me your feedback! I used to play up in the loft of the old Mink shed. I'd climb up the rickety stairs and play with all the old toys I had found up there, read the old books and write on the walls because I was allowed to. My neighbor's name was Hank and he had a daughter named Rose and she'd come and play with me too, she had a cat named Ginger and it was white and silver, with green eyes and it chased the pesky red squirrels that were often in the loft and she killed them. We were eight and the Mink shed was our home. My dad drank too many bottles of beer and stepped in the wrong door, and my mom spent her days in the kitchen cooking and talking to her bird, and my dad that was not there. Rose's dad- Hank was nice, he brought us candy and sometimes new toys to play with and he took us for nature walks. One day Hank died from a heart attack and Rose was supposed to live with us since Hank had no relatives and Roses mom died when Rose was born. We only had two rooms and two beds, and my dad already slept on the couch the only couch, so Rose slept with me in my bed and we held hands at night while my mom and dad screamed. One night when we were both ten, my dad drank too many glasses of whiskey and told us we weren't allowed to sleep in the house and dragged us out by our hair and said we were on our own. We stood outside, cold, in our pajamas and slippers and my mom sat on the couch watching us shiver and cry. I held Rose and Ginger rubbed her body along our legs and purred and Rose picked her up and buried her tears in her silver coat. We walked to the old Mink shed, it was cold and the floors were hard. We listened to the squirrels run through the walls and Rose cried as I clung to her shirt. We stayed up counting the footsteps of the squirrels all night, as we watched our breath turn to ice. We peered out the window all morning, Roses green eyes teary and soft, mine blue and cold and hard. I saw my dad tumble out the door of our house, and he looked up to the loft in the Mink shed. His eyes sharp and wrong, he was drunk and crazed, I ducked down and my heart started to beat out of my chest, Rose cowered under me and even though we'd never been to church we prayed to God and our tears froze to our cheeks. I prayed that the squirrels I feared so much all night would guard us from my father, but they wouldn't, they would run just as we wish we could have. I heard the door swing open, and Rose and I froze our bodies did not shake and we did not whimper. My father hollered out for Rose and he stormed up the stairs, my eyes widened as my father ripped me off of Rose. His eyes dark black, "Carrie, I told you to leave damn it!" and he grabbed my arm, so hard I felt it pop and I screamed and he told me to shut up. My feet could not move fast enough down the stairs and my eyes cried so rapidly I could not see, he flung me out the door, my shoulder throbbed with pain. He stood on the steps to the Mink shed and stared at me smiling, and in a low sarcastic tone he spoke "I told you, you little bitch, to get the fuck out off of my property!" my voice stayed in my stomach I swallowed the pain of my shoulder as he turned and walked back into the shed. I heard him calmly walk up the steps, I heard Rose scream. I sat outside, cold on the snow, my clothes wet, and I listened to Rose scream, over and over and over again and again, until I couldn't breathe anymore, until I had cried so much that my cheeks were frozen to the touch. Then it stopped. It was quiet and then I heard Rose, crying; the walls were thin and I heard my father walking down the stairs. I quickly got up and ran into the woods and hid, he scanned the forest and walked back the house, tripping in the deep snow banks. I ran back into the shed, my shoulder throbbing and I saw Rose, sitting in the corner her face bloody, her pajamas ripped, her hair torn, she didn't look at me. We never went back to the mink shed, and my father never let us back in the house, my mother never pleaded with him. Rose carried the scars with her, on her right cheek. We slept outside under a blue tarp, and Rose never spoke again. more

Open Question: who wants to lend a helping hand? lol?

ok so ive been laying in bed listening to my boyfriend snore wondering how i was going to phrase this or even if i should. so here it goes.....where or who has an extra $500 they would like to give me or let me borrow? and this desperation is coming from the fact that i cant just go take out a loan, i dont have people who will help me out and im pretty much short of selling myself...which isnt going to happen.ive gotten to the point where i think if i post this that someone will happen to have the extra cash that they wont miss to pay off my bills. i dont want to go get my nails done, or go tanning or buy some crack i just want to be able to get my head above water long enough to breathe and not stress. im tired of stressing. i work a from 30 to 40 hours a week and its never enough. my boyfriend busts his ass as well we dont splurge on anything and its getting to the point where im tired of drowning. i just want to get caught up to where i can stop stressing about stressing about bills. i can only imagine the feedback if any im going to get on this. and believe me ive thought about the fact that there are people out there who have it worse than me....but thinking about those people isnt helping me.if my boyfriend knew i was on here writing this he would think i was being silly. but i dont really have any other options...ugh.... i cant even believe im doing this myself. i dont want people to feel sorry for me or tell me to look to god for answers.... cause unless hes gonna come down here and hand me some money im thinking its not going to help. i figures why not asks a bunch of complete strangers who dont know a thing about me, what do i got to lose....nothing. im not the gambling type and would rather keep my last dollar then spend it on hope of winning two dollars. if anyone reads this i thank you and appreciate you in a sense letting me vent. good night and have a good life.... sincerely, desperationwow never thought i would get any responses....all of your advice is helpful and canceling things would help if it wasnt for some of those cancelation fees...lol.. but i do understand that it would help.... i know these issues are always going to be with me and i actually have a second job but because of the hours i work at my primary its hard to get hours in at my other. i really do appreciate and think what people are saying is helpful... sometimes listening to others view points helps put things in perspective.i didnt exactly think anyone would actually give me money which is why i didnt put any other infor. im embarassed to be doing this in the first place. i know there are ways to change how things are going....which i will probably do its just that at the moment i am in a rut...thanks again for your responses more

Open Question: Christian mommas, do you find this to be true?

I've heard what non Christians say about us, even my family members say things. They say WE are judgmental, rude, hypocritical, etc. Any time I leave an answer that goes against the mainstream I get tons of thumbs downs. Whenever I tell people MY values and ideas on raising MY children, I get weird looks or nasty comments about how mean a mother I am and how my kids will go crazy from my strictness. I get rude posts on here and emails sent about my responses. I know that some Christians who are overzealous may have ruined it for the rest of us, but that's not how we all are. I'm not pushy on my views, I don't talk about Jesus or God or the Bible unless it works it's way into the conversation. I'm not one of those people who cuss, drink, party, do bad things to people, and then go to church on Sunday and say "Oops, I'll try better next time", then do it all over again the next week. I really do strive to live as God instructed. I try to be a good person full of compassion. But, for some reason that's not what people think when they think about Christians. But, my thinking is that millions of families have raised their children with these same values and turn out just fine. I raise my children with the values and morals that the Bible talks about. I listen to what our pastor has to say and what my Christian friends have to say. This is what MY family believes in. I just get so sick of hearing about how I, as a Christian, judge people.... but it seems that I am the one always being judged. It just gets to me some days. I don't judge people, it's not MY place. If I don't agree with your parenting style, that's ok too. I won't say anything rude to your face or behind your back. I don't understand why people treat other people with disrespect, it solves nothing. What are your thoughts on this? Thanks!Bella: Wow, you really told me. I NEED validation, don't I! I don't believe I said anywhere that I was better then Non Christians.... I am better then NO ONE. But, your answer was exactly the kind of thing I was referring to. Thanks for demostrating.Mama Dukes: I agree, judgment is a 2 way street, I see that on here every day. It's a shame we can't all accept other peoples ideas and believes. I don't expect you to confirm to my believes and I doubt you expect me to confirm to yours. I understand your values are yours and mine are mine. If you'd like to hear about them I'd glady talk to you. If I want to learn more about yours I will ask. Not sure why that isn't the standard idea anymore..... :) more

Resolved Question: How to deal with really stubborn 12 year olds?

Haha so I'm 13, going into grade 8, and out church has day camp for grade 1-6... so once you've finished up grade 7 you can volunteer at day camp... There's lots of different groups of 10 or so kids, usually around the same age. People aren't allowed to be leaders in a group if the kids are only 1 or 2 years younger than them. Cause you know, a 12 year old wouldn't really wanna be bossed around by a 13 year old right? Anyways, I'm not a group leader, I'm the game supervisor, which means I have to deal with kids of all ages. so me and my friend (also 13) set up the games, explain it to the kids, and make sure they're following the rules, and play with them if we want... Today when we were doing the games with grade 4-6... I was explaining it, and it's actually a complex game, most of the younger kids didn't get it, so I had to explain it again, more slowly. There was this idiot in sixth grade who was like "Everyone gets how to play this stupid game, you don't need to explain it like that to us, we're not idiots, can we just get this lame game over with already?" so I split up the teams, and me and my friend each went to play on a different team. Anyways, in the side of the gym I was on, there was a boy who still didn't get the game, so before we started I had to really explain it to him. And the sixth grade boy was going "EVERYONE GETS THE ****ING GAME SO LETS JUST PLAY IT, GOD." I told him that some people didn't get it and he could wait for a few seconds while I explained it further. And he was like "OKAY. WHO DOESN'T UNDERSTAND THIS?" and then the boy I was helping said "me" and the sixth grade scowled at him. Finally, I got the boy to understand the game and we started. And then... the sixth grade was cheating... and I was so frustrated with him that I gave the other team an advantage, which made his whole team mad at him, which made him REALLY pissed at me. Anyways, since he cheated, everyone got confused and no one understood the game, so we switched to playing Mission Impossible. Just so happens the guy LOVED that game, so he was playing and probably cheating (though you can't tell since you play it in the dark) it only occured to me now I should have made him sit out for his favorite game, but I doubt he'd listen to me, I'm a little less than a year older than him, and I'm a girl. No way would he take orders from me. Ugh, he's so annoying... how should I deal with that moron tomorrow? more

Open Question: I wonder when they kill me, is there a heaven for a real g?

The only way to change me is maybe blow my brains out stuck in the middle of the game to get the pain out Pray to my God everyday but he don't listen the poverty bothers me but mama's working wonders in the kitchen Listen I can hear her crying in the bedroom praying for money we never think would she be dead soon Am I wrong for wishing I was somewhere else at 13 can't feed myself Can I blame daddy 'cause he left me wish he would've hugged me too much like him so my mama don't love me On my own at an early age, gettin' paid and I'm strapped so I'll never be afraid Where did I go astray? I'm hanging in the back streets running with G's and dope fiends till they jack me? Can't turn back, my eyes on the prize I got nothing to lose everybody gotta die say good-bye to the, bad guy that one you fucked when you passed by Buck buck [gunshots] from a Glock let the glass fly Do or Die walk a mile in my shoes and you'd be crazy too with nothing to lose I got nothing to lose I thank the Lord for my many blessings though I'm stressin' keep a vest for protection from the barrel of the Smith & Wesson and all my n1ggas in the pen' here we go again Ain't nothing separating us from a MAC 10 Born in the ghetto as a hustla, older straight soldier bucking at them busters No matter how you try n!ggas never die We just retaliate with hate then we multiply see me striking down the block hittin' corners Mobbin' like a motherphucker livin' like I wanna Ain't no stoppin' at the red lights I'm sideways Thug Life motherphucker crime pays Let the cops put they lights on chase me n1gga zig-zaggin' through the freeway race me n!gga In a high speed chase with the law the realest motherphucker that you ever saw I'm livin' raw 'til they bury me don't worry me I'm high livin' like I ain't afraid to die And you could walk a mile in my shoes and you'd be crazy too with nothing to lose, i got nothing to lose Ain't no escape from a deadly fate and everyday there's a million black bodies put away I'm startin' to lose hope it seems everybody's on dope Mama told me to leave 'cause she was broke Sometimes I choke on the indo peepin' out the window, alone on my own I'm a criminal Got no love from the household, I'm out cold in the streets screaming motherphucking peace I got nothing to lose and something to prove What do I do live Thug Life n!gga stay true I wonder when they kill me is there a Heaven for a real G Lord forgive me if you feel me 'Cause all my life I was dirt broke with no hope little skinny motherphucker wantin' dope I hated cutting suckers with my razor blade but everyday it's a struggle to get major paid Anyway it's so hard on a n1gga in this city no pity and ain't no love for the scars that bind time If you could walk a mile in my shoes, you'd be crazy too with nothing to lose more

Open Question: I didn't know so many users listened to music...dont you know its haram?

References within the context of the Holy Qur`aan along with the Hadith of the Prophet Sallalahu alihi wa sallam (Peace be upon him) confirm that music is haraam. Interpreters of the Qur`aan have defined the term `lahwal hadith` which is mentioned in the Qur`aan as: 1) Singing and listening to songs. 2) Purchasing of male and female singers. 3) Purchase of instruments of fun and amusement. When Sayyidana Abdullah Ibne Mas`ood radiyallahu Anhu (Allah be pleased with him), a very close companion of our Prophet Sallalahu alihi wa sallam (Peace be upon him) was asked about the meaning of the term `lahwal hadith`, he replied “I swear by Him besides whom there is no other God,that it refers to ghinaa (singing ).” This statement, he repeated three times. This view is unanimously supported by the four Khalifas, the eminent Sahabaah, Tabi`een, the four Imaams and other reliable Islaamic scholars and authorities. One hadith from the Bukhari Shareef, the most authentic Book of Hadith, further confirms unlawfulness of music and singing : `There will be people of my Ummah who will seek to make lawful; fornication, wine-drinking and the use of ma`aazif ( musical instruments ).` Detailed analysis of the arabic word `ma`aazif ` shows that it refers to musical instruments, the sounds of those musical instruments and singing with the accompaniment of instruments. Closer analysis of the wordings of the Hadith establishes the prohibition of music. Firstly, the words `seek to make lawful ` shows that music is not permissible, as logically one can only seek to make lawful that which is not allowed. Secondly, if music was not prohibited, then it would not have been brought within the same context as fornication and wine-drinking. For more info: http://www.inter-islam.org/Prohibitions/Mansy_music.htm more

Resolved Question: What should I do about this situation? I need help =(?

This girl changes the way I feel about other girls. I love her and dont know what to do. I give her massages and put lotion on her legs. We always look each other in the eyes when were together. I've never been like this with a girl. I've never loved a girl like I do with her. Two days ago I made a FB status with <3 and she liked it. People wrote on the status about me and her going out. Today I guess she saw the notifications and replied "oh god..." I replied with "oh fuck...." She then replied with "you guys are crazy" My heart was crushed after I read that. If loving a girl more than anything is crazy then screw it. I dont know what I should do know. Should I talk to her or leave it the way it is? I love everything about her, her smile, personality, and especially her eyes. Every song I listen to reminds me of her. I cant get her out of my mind. Now I'm about to really not talk to her bc she updated her FB status to "In a realtionship" but even when she was in a realtionship we still flirted together. We cuddled together and talked. Now my heart is crushed bc she hasnt talked to me since ='(. Please help me. What should I do?Thanks guys and yes I'm a teen (15). The problem is on her FB it doesnt say who it's with (the relationship). My friend said that she sent him a personal message on FB. He then asked me when was the last time I got with a girl, I told him last year in 8th grade...he replied well ur in 4 a treat when she comes over. Maye the FB relationship status was to me but she hasnt told me yet. I have to ask my friend to see the message more

Open Question: Why do creation theory folk jump for joy?

when they think a scientific study determining that a chicken preceded its ovum is a sign of the miracle of God, yet deny thousands of other evidential facts that disproves creation? How is it that creationists can embrace science with utter glee when it is in their favor, yet all this time have been telling us how bogus science is? If someone thought science, and learning through scientific study, were so incredibly flawed, why are they embracing it now? Can someone make sense of this? Why do they corrupt scientific data to even determine that Yahweh, or whomever, manifested a chicken from thin air? How do you we know it wasn't the almighty Thor you did this, if in fact it was the result of a God? Scientists have never, nor will they ever, prove an intervening Lord who listens to our prays and grants life after death in "spirit" form. I highly doubt they will ever prove any sort of conscious creator of the universe either, but if they had, no one knows what it could be. more

Open Question: Chapter 1? Is it okay? Or does it need more work?

Chapter 1 (Hazel) My life is like a really crappy soap opera. Even though I was only fourteen at the time, I probably had a lot more drama in my life then most people. That summer was the best and the worst summer of my life. Ever look at your past and think man I really screwed up? Yeah I do that all the time. I didn’t really start screwing up until that summer. The summer of 2010. I remember that first day like it was yesterday. It wasn’t really hot like I’d hoped it would be. It was actually slightly chilly. I waited for what seemed like hours for my best friend Drake to meet me at the baseball field. The bleachers were hard and dirty and I honestly didn’t wanna sit on them. I looked on the back of them for gum my brother, Trevor, had stuck there a few years before. It was gone. I was actually a little disappointed that it wasn’t there. Drake came riding down the path that lead to the canal. His bike was horrible looking. Honestly I didn’t know how it worked. It was rusty and falling apart. I would always tell him that he was going to hurt himself if he didn’t get a new bike. But he’s Drake, so he wasn’t going to listen. My smile grew larger. I couldn’t help it. Whenever he was around it just happened. I tired to hold back. I knew I looked stupid. He didn’t seem to notice, maybe he was just being nice. “Hey Drake. Rose wants us to meet her at her apartment,” I said. Rose was my other best friend. She was like a sister to me. But sometimes she could be really obnoxious. Roses apartment was right across the street. The outside looked beautiful, the inside not so much. The inside looked like something had exploded. It wasn’t even there fault. The ceiling fan made a loud obnoxious clanging sound. And the walls had dents in them from god knows what. There were clothes everywhere. Drake didn’t seem to notice. “HAZEL!” Rose yelled and then ran to attack me with a hug. “Nice to see you to Rose.” I loved Rose, I really did. But I have to say it, she was a freak, but in the good way. She started to play with my hair. I hated my hair. It was long and pitch black. Not even like brown that could be confused as black, it was actually black. “DRAKE!” She screamed and started petting him. She pat everyone. Not just Drake. She never pet me because I would always freak out when I got touched. “Hi mommy!” I yelled in that not actually yelling just talking loudly voice. I ran over to Roses mom and hugged her. “Hi Hazel.” We hung out at Roses for a while. Then mommy (I call Roses mom, “mommy,” and my own mom, “mom”) asked us to go get her some stuff at the CTS. (Christmas tree shop) Drake acts like a five year old. So the second we walked into the CTS he let it all out. He was running up and down the isles and whacking me with plastic swords and other random stuff. We had to hide the pointy things from him. Honestly I’m surprised we didn’t get kick out. You know that phrase if you cant beat them join them? Well after a while I gave up on trying to get Drake to act normal, and I started acting like him. I picked up a little pink tutu and said, “hey Drake! This would look great on you!” “Oh yeah I would look lovely in this,” he said taking it out of my hand. Rose was on the ground laughing. Rose was beautiful, but she didn’t see it. When the light in the CTS hit her just right she looked like a goddess. Her curly light red hair shined. For the first time I noticed how beauteous her bright green eyes really were. It started to bother me that she couldn’t see how stunning she actually was. We paid for the things and went back to Roses beat up old apartment. When we got back there was pizza on the table that mommy had ordered for us. It was a shame that she would never get to see it. Mommy was blind, she wasn’t born that way, I felt bad for her. Can you imagine waking up one day and not being able to see at all? Not being able to see colors, not being able to see your only daughter. It must have been horrible. After I finished dinner mom txted me to come home. So me and Drake walked back to my house. My house was about a ten minute walk from Roses apartment. I stepped on something the wrong way and my left flip-flop broke. “Oh shit. This is my favorite pair to!” I said angrily. Drake laughed. I threw it at him. I looked stupid with only one flip-flop so I had to take the other one off. We spent the rest of the day play fighting in the basement. We did it most of the time. We would just swing at each other and chase each other with pool sticks. We played air hockey for a while. It was a pretty normal day. Mom drove him home at nine. I came with them, just to make sure Drake didn’t spill any of my secrets. Drake knew almost everything about me. I wasn’t about to let him tell my mom about the drinking, the cutting, or the slight anorexia. Or, the big secret. I wasn’t a bad kid, I was just troubled and looking for attention. I would steal mom and dads vit cut off. sorry.I wasn’t a bad kid, I was just troubled and looking for attention. I would steal mom and dads vodka while they were asleep. Sometimes I would cut myself hoping they would see the scares. And every now and then I would go threw a anorexia phase were I wouldn’t eat anything for a few days, then Drake would scream at me and make me eat again. I mostly did all this so mom and dad would take me back to therapy. Every time I saw Drakes house I cringed a little. It wasn’t painted, and it looked like it was falling apart. I had never been on the inside, and I didn’t want to. It had a big yard, but it was defiantly a piece of crap. His life was worse then his house. His dad didn’t care about him, and his mom was in and out of the mental hospital. I felt really bad for him. more

Open Question: How much life you have left to live? Pl read on!?

If you read one story today, read this one. How many marbles do you have? It sounds like a set-up, a prelude to a punchline about losing one’s marbles. But as you’ll see from this remarkable story below, the marbles measure much more. And you can personally change that which they measure and perhaps, the quality of your life going forward. The older I get, the more I enjoy Saturday mornings. Perhaps it’s the quiet solitude that comes with being the first to rise, of maybe it’s the unbounded joy of not having to be at work. Either way, the first few hours of a Saturday morning are most enjoyable. A few weeks ago, I was shuffling toward the kitchen, with a steaming cup of coffee in one hand and the morning paper in the other. What began as a typical Saturday morning turned into one of those lessons that life seems to hand you from time to time. Let me tell you about it. I turned the volume up on my radio in order to listen to a Saturday morning talk show. I heard an older sounding chap with a golden voice. You know the kind, he sounded like he should be in the broadcasting business himself. He was talking about “a thousand marbles” to someone named “Tom”. I was intrigued and sat down to listen to what he had to say. “Well, Tom, it sure sounds like you’re busy with your job. I’m sure they pay you well but it’s a shame you have to be away from home and your family so much. Hard to believe a young fellow should have to work sixty or seventy hours a week to make ends meet. Too bad you missed your daughter’s dance recital. ” He continued, “Let me tell you something Tom, something that has helped me keep a good perspective on my own priorities.” And that’s when he began to explain his theory of a “thousand marbles.” “You see, I sat down one day and did a little arithmetic. The average person lives about seventy-five years. I know, some live more and some live less, but on average, folks live about seventy-five years.” “Now then, I multiplied 75 times 52 and I came up with 3900 which is the number of Saturdays that the average person has in their entire lifetime. “Now stick with me Tom, I’m getting to the important part. “It took me until I was fifty-five years old to think about all this in any detail”, he went on, “and by that time I had lived through over twenty-eight hundred Saturdays. “I got to thinking that if I lived to be seventy-five, I only had about a thousand of them left to enjoy. “So I went to a toy store and bought every single marble they had. I ended up having to visit three toy stores to round-up 1000 marbles. “I took them home and put them inside of a large, clear plastic container right here in my workshop next to the radio. Every Saturday since then, I have taken one marble out and thrown it away. “I found that by watching the marbles diminish, I focused more on the really important things in life. There is nothing like watching your time here on this earth run out to help get your priorities straight. “Now let me tell you one last thing before I sign-off with you and take my lovely wife out for breakfast. This morning, I took the very last marble out of the container. I figure if I make it until next Saturday then God has blessed me with a little extra time to be with my loved ones…… “It was nice to talk to you Tom, I hope you spend more time with your loved ones, and I hope to meet you again someday. Have a good morning!” You could have heard a pin drop when he finished. Even the show’s moderator didn’t have anything to say for a few moments. I guess he gave us all a lot to think about. I had planned to do some work that morning, then go to the gym. Instead, I went upstairs and woke my wife up with a kiss. “C’mon honey, I’m taking you and the kids to breakfast.” “What brought this on?” she asked with a smile. “Oh, nothing special,” I said. ” It has just been a long time since we spent a Saturday together with the kids. Hey, can we stop at a toy store while we’re out? I need to buy some marbles.” ————————————– How many marbles do you have left? more

Open Question: Anyone know where I can track down new or used "Stories that Live" series cassettes or cds?

listened to these as a child back in the 80s and 90s. Anyone know where I could track some down? There were different tape series. I remember one tape opened with the lines, "On this cassette tape you will hear the stories of Samson the strong man, Saul the first king, Elijah whose God answered by fire, and Naaman the Leper. Now, open your books and read along as you listen to the Stories that Live series! more

Resolved Question: New momma and a nervous breakdown. Help?

Okay so I know some mothers have it WAY worse than me. But I'd just like to rant a bit. When I was pregnant my physician "forgot" to give me the 16 week blood test to check for neural tube and chromosomal abnormalities. Then when I got my 20 week US, the found a few soft markers (nulch on her neck) indicating down syndrome. And because he forgot to do this routine bloodwork the only way to find out was through an amnio. Needless to say I would have loved her just as much either way, but because I refused the amnio because of the risks, I played a 9 month guessing game that broke my heart again and again. I had a total of 14 US, they just kept discovering more and more "little things", I was diagnosed with ogliohydramnios (very low amniotic fluids), the result, she was born club footed. I stressed so much during my pregnancy. I was on bed rest for the most part (not fun), My heart rate was 170bpm just as much as my LO, and my bp was really low. Little things that piled on, they just kept comming at me with a vengence. Then at around 7 months I thought I was dieing; NOBODY listened to me when I told them I was in so much pain I couldn't breathe walk or talk, I fainted at the top of the stairs, thank god for my husband. Anyways turns out I had gallstones, due to pregnancy. I went on for 3 months with these pains everytime I ate, I lost about 20 lbs. So now I have a gorgeous 6 week old, and just got gallbladder surgery. Now? they discovered the bile from my GB leaked and I now have a damn drain placed in there. Awesome, I just feel like this will never end. I want to be there for my daughter, but as of now it hurts to even pick her up. I feel like a **** mother, I'm a SAHM, when she cries (which is A LOT, colic, lovely) I can just rub her belly and talk to her, I can't even do anything. I feel so useless, also my MIL always has something to say about the way I parent, I'm apparently never doing anything right, and I am going to have a nervous breakdown soon. Anyways if you read all this thanks, Any thoughts, comments or advice?Actually I'm alone all day MIL has done nothing for us so far. I just moved to this town in Jan, away from my family and friends. (rent is cheap here, and hubby got a gerat job) more

Open Question: My boyfriends nephews come over and are badly behaved?

I don't know what to do!? I love my boyfriend and I do love his family (most the time lol). I work as a daycare teacher and Im in school pursuing my degree in Early Childcare. So I know a thing or two about kids. One thing that really bothers me is a child who shows no respect in someone else's home. Yesterday my boyfriends nephew came over (3 yrs old) with his mother (his sister) and her other son (1.5 yrs). The 3 year old was taking his toys and throwing them at the Glass door becuase he couldnt get his way. His mother did not do anything but comfort him. Then he was running around screaming so loud. We live in a very nice quiet apartment by the way. I couldn't even hear myself think! I asked him to stop screaming. (use inside voice) He didnt listen . instead he came up behind me and screamed into my ear. My bf did ask him to lower his voice once. (obviosly not good enough) I never thought a kid could scream that loud! Then he started climbing my cats climbing post when he knows he is not alllowed. I don't want it to break or god forbid he fall. point is that my bf and his Sister didnt calm him down. He wont listen to me. I cant disipline him the way I want in front of his mother in fear of her taking things the wrong way. Now Im annoyed with my bf bc he allows this. I put the kid in a time out last year and he hated me. everytime I would see him he would give me a mean face and then my bf would say that no one likes me and that even a child notices how mean I am. .. lol Im not mean to kids I love them to death and always have thier best interest at heart. But bad behavior deserves time outs. Please give me your comments or thoughts on this issue. And please no tips on how to control a kid.. I already know how to! Thank you thank you so much more

Open Question: Without the knowledge of good and evil, how could you possibly know what is good or what is evil?

Isn't that the great flaw in the genesis story? How could adam and eve possibily known that eating of the fruit was evil, until after having eaten of the fruit. (Don't give me they didn't listen to god--without knowing the difference between an evil act and a good act--they'd have given the same weight to what god said as to what the serpent said--how could they do otherwise--they didn't "know" anything remember?). What kind of sick psycotic deity would punish and curse a species for something done they couldn't possibliy have known was an evil thing to do.sorry ester but you glossed over the major element--without knowledge of good and evil god could have said green bannana yogurt and the serpent could have said orange marmalde racecar--and it would have meant the same to them. They would only have had the capacity to understand the meaning of these instructions AFTER eating. more

Open Question: Christians why does it make a difference if one is a Christian or not?

Since none of the people who followed or dealt with Jesus were Christians? Many people today think that by believing in Jesus, they are called followers of Christ (Christians). Even the bible prove this to be false. First off the disciples were considered Christians. Not the people who were healed. Not the people who listen to him preached or even invited Jesus to their home. Jesus just didn't pick anyone to go out among the people. He denied people who wanted to join his disciples, and he never gave any of his disciples a religion title. The start of Christianity started after the departure of Jesus. Not while he was here. Jesus sent his disciples out to help, heal and minister to the people. He did not send his disciples out to bully people into believing or converting them into being something they aren't. A cult member. The difference between the disciples and Christians. The disciples were taught by the Holy Spirit. Many of Christians today are taught by man and a book that was written thousand of years ago. Anyone can gain knowledge from a book, but no one can get wisdom from a book. And I can guarantee you this. Not everyone who says Lord, Lord is going to see heaven when they die. GUARANTEED. I am not a Christian. Thank God, thank God, thank GOD. more

Resolved Question: What are your thoughts on this?

Charles Krauthammer was: Born: March 13, 1950 Birthplace: New York City, New York Raised in Montreal, Canada Attended McGill University and Harvard Medical School 1972 diving accident left him a paraplegic Directed psychiatric research for the Carter administration Began writing career in 1981 with The New Republic Helped develop the "Reagan Doctrine" in the 80s Appointed to Presidential Council on Bioethics in 2002 Dr. Charles Krauthammer We see him on TV every weekday on the Fox news channel (not Channel 5) at 6:30pm. I didn't know he was an MD nor did I know he is paralyzed. He's quite man. Dr. Krauthammer is on Fox News . He is an M.D. and a lawyer and is paralyzed from the neck down. A friend went to hear Charles Krauthammer. He listened with 25 others in a closed room. What he says here, is NOT 2nd-hand but 1st. The ramifications are staggering for us, our children and their children. Last Monday was a profound evening, Dr. Charles Krauthammer spoke to the Center for the American Experiment.. He is a brilliant intellectual, seasoned & articulate. He is forthright and careful in his analysis, and never resorts to emotions or personal insults. He is NOT a fear monger nor an extremist in his comments and views . He is a fiscal conservative, and has received a Pulitzer Prize for writing. He is a frequent contributor to Fox News and writes weekly for the Washington Post. The entire room was held spellbound during his talk. I have summarized his comments, as we are living in uncharted waters economically and internationally. Even 2 Dems at my table agreed with everything he said! If you feel like forwarding this to those who are open minded and have not drunk the Kool-Aid, feel free.... Summary of his comments: 1. Mr. Obama is a very intellectual, charming individual. He is not to be underestimated. He is a cool customer who doesn't show his emotions. It's very hard to know what's behind the mask.The taking down of the Clinton dynasty was an amazing accomplishment. The Clintons still do not understand what hit them. Obama was in the perfect place at the perfect time. 2. Obama has political skills comparable to Reagan and Clinton . He has a way of making you think he's on your side, agreeing with your position, while doing the opposite. Pay no attention to what he SAYS; rather, watch what he DOES! 3. Obama has a ruthless quest for power. He did not come to Washington to make something out of himself, but rather to change everything, including dismantling capitalism. He can't be straightforward on his ambitions, as the public would not go along. He has a heavy hand, and wants to level the playing field with income redistribution and punishment to the achievers of society. He would like to model the USA to Great Britain orCanada . 4. His three main goals are to control ENERGY, PUBLIC EDUCATION, and NATIONAL HEALTHCARE by the Federal government. He doesn't care about the auto or financial services industries, but got them as an early bonus. The cap and trade will add costs to everything and stifle growth. Paying for FREE college education is his goal. Most scary is his healthcare program, because if you make it FREE and add 46,000,000 people to a Medicare-type single-payer system, the costs will go through the roof. The only way to control costs is with massive RATIONING of services, like in Canada . God forbid! 5. He has surrounded himself with mostly far-left academic types. No one around him has ever even run a candy store. But they are going to try and run the auto, financial, banking and other industries. This obviously can't work in the long run. Obama is not a socialist; rather he's a far-left secular progressive bent on nothing short of revolution. He ran as a moderate, but will govern from the hard left. Again, watch what he does, not what he says. 6. Obama doesn't really see himself as President of the United States , but more as a ruler over the world.. He sees himself above it all, trying to orchestrate & coordinate various countries and their agendas. He sees moral equivalency in all cultures. His apology tour in Germany and England was a prime example of how he sees America , as an imperialist nation that has been arrogant, rather than a great noble nation that has at times made errors. This is the first President ever who has chastised our allies and appeased our enemies! 7. He is now handing out goodies. He hopes that the bill (and pain) will not come due until after he is reelected in 2012. He would like to blame all problems on Bush from the past, and hopefully his successor in the future. He has a huge ego, and Dr. Kra more

Open Question: why do so mannyy peaople hate wayne, and love eminem and dont know about cassidy?

i like waynes shit sometimes his way off the subject but hes cool he makes hit records same with eminem that niçça is too much for this rap game and cassidy he is the most under rated rzpper out this guy is truly sick with his punchlines also what you think of my reallly short rap screaming f--- the devil, praying to god cuz thats my revel listen to the true words from my level, thats coming out my lung began selling green when i was young cops watching my every move, caring a key but felt like a ton stood em in the face, just speaking but am feeling i was getting hung came to the school n arrested me for stupid $---- i have done no 2Nd chances life's with no advances, Lil kids getting a cigar ..... havent ended yet more

Open Question: whats the most complex and most easiest music to make?

i love music . i got the gene from my dad . he likes progressive rock and i like psytrance . their both consider complex music but i don't know now what music to listen to . when ever i chose a music i feel like i have to loose or give up a interest that does not relate to the music . for instance , if i choose rock i can like x men and ghost busters but if i choose my favorite psy , i can only like x- men . i feel good when i chose rock but i love electronic and i wish i can like both . please , anyone give an idea on which music is hard to make and which ones are easy so i can possible come to a conclusion . thank you and god bless all of you . peace . more

Open Question: Atheists: What do you think of this? (Very interesting and important)?

So I was reading an article in an Iranian science magazine and it was amazing. It's recent scientific evidence that God exists. I checked the English source on the internet to read the original article. I entered my name and my email address and I got the first part of the English article in my email. I have the full Persian article in the magazine, but it seems like they'll send it to you in 5 parts within 5 days. It's worth the try: Here's the address: www.cosmicfingerprints.com The following website is a page from the same website. By a quick glance, you'll understand why random evolutional processes cannot create so many different species. A scientist will be talking about DNA and stuff, so listen to him and let me know what you think. Thank you. http://cosmicfingerprints.com/ifyoucanreadthis.htmI'm saying this is an English website. The translated article is in the Iranian magazine. And that scientists seems to be American.The impressive part is the last part of the article where scintists conclude that what has caused this universe to come to existance out of nothing has to be trillions of times smarter than humans. The chances that it was all a coincidence have been rejected. It's about the dark energy and stuff. You'll need to read it for yourself. I can't translate it into English as it is well beyond my English speaking skills.But those physical and mathematical calculations seemed to be really convincing. Have you read the whole article? more

Open Question: Ramadan::: ::::* Quick Census*::**?

Asalamualiekum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuho May Allah swt guide us all and let us all come to terms with one another. Ameen Dear Brothers and Sisters, Sometimes we forget that by believing in The One God and his Messengers down to his final Messenger Nabi Muhammad Saaws.. we have a strong bond that should hold us together. Allah has also created differences in us so that we may know each other... so with that in mind Lets know Each other a bit more! CENSUS** 1. Name 2. Country of Birth 3. Where are your parents from? 4. Which languages do you speak? 5. What is your favorite food? 6. What do you do for a living/study? 7. What is your favorite hobby? 8. Do you enjoy listening to Nasheeds? 9.Do you enjoy listening to music? 10. Favorite Movie or Book...other than Quran!!* :) Inshallah Khair you may star this so that we will all know a bit more of each other... and I may get to know all you Newbies a little Better!! MAsalama!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) Tsba al khair ana roa7! Hope this helps salaams!! ;)STAR THE QUESTION PLEASE!!! JAZAK ALLAH KHAIR more

Open Question: If Christ returns before the end of the world & tells a truth which differs from all religions, will u listen?

This is a simple question really. Because organized religions seem to think that the Bible is the only true source of God's word and they tell their "herd" (or "flock") that it is all they need to learn from, and thus "brainwash" their followers into blocking out any alternative sources of "insight" into the "human condition", will you be able to trust in a "Christ" who doesn't come to you glowing with a bright light and walking across some body of water? Will you be able to "see" a "Christ" who is nothing more than a normal person who has reached "enlightenment" and understands the eternal along with the temporal "worlds" and wishes nothing more than to free you from the deception which organized religion perpetuates (cure your sickness)? Or will you cling desperately to the ignorant teachings of men designed to prevent you from your destiny? more

Resolved Question: What Do You Think About This... The Marriage Of Heaven And Hell?

I just listened to "A Plea For Purging"s new album, "The Marriage Of Heaven And Hell". These guys are a christian band, but as I was going through the lyrics, there was alot of "YOUR GOD IS DEAD" phrases. Check it out for yourself. http://www.bandsonfire.com/hearts-on-fire/lyrics-database/article/a-plea-for-purging-the-marriage-of-3953 ...what do you think? more

Open Question: A Very Strange Dream/Life changing event?

So i had a dream last night where Raptor jesus was talking to me.I swear it was so real in fact he told me what was going to happen today.He even said I would be typing this .He claimed he was the one and only god.I think im going to listen to his words.So have you guys meet Raptor Jesus? more

Open Question: What should I do?...:(?

I am dealing with some stressful stuff right now and I just don't know what to do. My brother is the one who is causing all of this. All he ever says to me is "your fat", "get a life", get some friends", "your ugly", "your gay"...the list goes on and on. I seriously can't take it anymore. Mind you he is 13 years old and I am 16. You may think "oh he's your little brother, don't listen to him; just ignore him". You know what, no, I CANNOT do that anymore. Whenever he says these things to me, I literally get physical feedback from what he says or does. I cringe when he walks by me. He thinks he is stronger and better than me. So not only does he emotionally hurt me but physically too. And if your reading this right now and thinking "really? I am dealing with worse things right now, but I am just so F--ing done with this crap! And what's worse is that after so many insults from him, I just cannot take it anymore and I blow up in his face and cry and of course "wow really, your crying..your such a baby"...its literally to the point were when he makes certain noises I cringe inside. So all this time that he is saying these things to me I actually think about what he says and start to believe it and now its all I think about. Even though I KNOW its not true it just eats me up inside. The other problem is my mom. She's always told me, when I was little, "you can tell me anything...blah blah blah"...she has never asked me how im doing or if im okay, even when she can see im hurting inside. One moring I literally woke up crying because of all the stress that is just weighing me down. (It was during the school year) I came out of my room and she just looked and me and was like "what's wrong with you?". So I just continued to tell her, "please can I just stay home? I really don't want to go to school" (which also would add more stress...*high school*, hello?) By the way, my brother and little sister were just sitting there next to her...My eyes are red and im clearly going through something and needed SOMEONE to talk to. She continues to ask "what's your problem?"...Really? You expect me to pour my heart out in front of the whole family here! That just made me more upset. I really want to just talk to her and just to have her sit there and listen to what im going through and hug me and tell me everything's going to be okay. I feel SO alone....Talking to friends....I don't know about that...Honestly I just want to tell her, but I really wish she could come to me herself. I just don't get it........Im wondering if I should take some kind of stress relief pills or SOMETHING. I pray everyday for God to give me strength and courage but sometimes I just need that physical support from a person, like my mom. WHAT SHOULD I DO? Please, please help me here. Don't leave any mean comments, honestly don't stoop this low....I can't take anymore demeaning comments from heartless people... more

Open Question: Would you be interested in reading something like this?

"I believe in nothing. Everything is nothing to me, my Life is nothing, nothing is nothing." I muttered to myself, almost as a whisper. Ever since Connor died, I felt nothing. I was.. numb. My mother says that this is just a stage, and I'm feeling like this just because I witnessed his death. My mother said it was just sadness that made me felt like I had caused Connor's death, which I do, which I had done. If I didn't invite Connor to met up with my mates and I for that stupid, immature party, if he hadn't said yes, if he hadn't drove up that stupid Parker Road, he would be here, and he wouldn't be in that black basket right now. "Come on honey, we're here." My mother said in a tired voice, she hadn't slept much ever since Connor died, neither had I though. "Yes Mama." I said and stepped out of our black, shiny Volvo. Connor loved this Volvo... I took my mother's hand and gave it a squeeze. "Smile Mama, Connor would have wanted us to." I said, and forced a smile, she did too. We then frowned at the same time, as a single, blue tear slid down my mother's pale, wrinkled face. "Let's go inside. See Connor in person for one last time." to which my mother replied "Okay." and kissed my forehead. "I love you Casimir, you bring the best out in people." to which I actually smiled to. Then together we stepped on inside the cathedral. The funeral service was long, boring, and depressing. I never knew so many people had known Connor, and I instantly found myself naming off the people that had came. Me, Mom, his friends-Jerry, Max, Lucas, Sully, Scott, Mark, Anthony, Jax, Ace, and Roger, my small circle of friends-Ezra, Marshall, James, Ryan, Chaz, and Deryck, mother's friends-Tina, Carrie, Louis, Melissa, Tabathia, Janelle, and Kelly, our left neighbor, Miss Abblesem, our right neighbors, Mr. Rikkin and his brat of a daughter, Anya, and then there were some other people, but I didn't recognize them. One though, really stood out to me. She was a girl, and she looked about 15 or 16, two years younger than me and Connor-well, just me now. She had long, wavy auburn hair which was tied up in a bun with her auburn side-bangs that covered her left eye, which both of them were big, bright blue eyes heavily surrounded by thick, dark, bold, black mascara and eyeliner. She was short, looking about 5`2, and she was pretty curvy, from what I could tell in the black dress she was wearing, which hugged her hips perfectly. She had thin, pink lips with straight teeth underneath. She was wearing a black headband, and she was in the back row. God, this girl looked so familiar, I just didn't know who she was! Her head then lifted up in saw me looking at her and politely smiled as best as she could. You could tell she had been crying lately, since her cheeks and eyes were all red and puffy. I smiled back and then focused my attention on the preacher drowning on about how we are all equal, in death's eyes. An hour later, after everyone had said their Goodbye's to Connor, me and my mother had to stand next to each other, and people had to pay their respects to us. I smiled in the back of my mind, I had been thinking about her for the past hour, and now with this, I might be able to find out who this mysterious girl is. She was the second last person to pay their respects, she didn't seem to be with anyone, but she certainly seemed to know my mother. "I'm so sorry, Mrs. Garrison. First your husband and now Connor... I can't even imagine how rough it must be for you." to which Mom forced a smile to. "It's okay Sonya, everyone comes and goes." and my mother said a bit more, but I wasn't listening to her, I was focusing on the girl. She hugged my mother and then she turned to me. "I know you loved your brother a lot, he talked about you very often." she told me and I smiled at her. "Anything bad?" I asked, "No, just the fact that you seriously bug him when he tried to watch the news." this Sonya chick said, and we both laughed. Actually laughed. This had been the first time I had laughed with someone after Connor died. After a moment, my curiousity asked "How did you know my brother?" Sonya paused. "I was his... girlfriend." she said, and my heart stopped for a moment. No way could he have done this to her. Connor told me how he didn't have a girlfriend, how he just hooked up with rrandom girls everynight, and I meet most of them. Cassidy, Helena, Stacey, Tapainga... A new girl every night, and he had never mentioned a Sonya. I frowned. "Did he ever tell you?" I said, closing my eyes to not she her expression; but I heard the shock in her voice though. "No, what?!" she said, loudly. I sighed and opened my eyes. "Friday, at the coffee shop on Bailey Street. 8 o`clock. Be there, I'll exp more

Resolved Question: Do you think George Steinbrenner is pissed he died today and not tommorow because he has to listen to Joe Buck?

He is probably kicking God right now saying what were you thinking now I have to listen to this guy instead of being there. BQ: Do TV's in heaven have a mute button? RIP George Steinbrenner more

Open Question: How do I go about a lawsuit against the VA Hospital?

I have such a long story. Before I get into this please know this is not about money, I lost my father, no amount of money would bring him back or heal the pain that I am in. What I desire most, what will make me feel better is justice. And at 26 I have now made it my mission to make sure that Veterans get the treatment they deserve. My father passed away a few days ago at 58. He was in the VA Hospital for 8 weeks. He was a diabetic and a few months ago they found a narrowed valve to his heart. He was also on dialysis for failing kindeys. The reason he was there was because of Spinal infection. Before the infection was found in my fathers spine, he has been to the ER 4 times. Each time he told them he had major pain in his back and side, and they just sent him home with even more medication and told him it was broncitis. My thing is, they knew he was diabetic, infections are common among those with diabetes, why did it take so long them to find that out. I feel like they were always eager to get him out, never did they truly listen,I was there, and I felt neglected for my fathers sake. Second, while my father was in the ICU, we were suddenly told my father does not have long to live. And we were pressured my more than one doctor in a passive-aggressive way to pull the plug. One doctor had the nerve to come talk to my 19 year old sister who was visiting our father at the time and say "You know your father won't get better. You know your father won't make it" and I'm sorry, this doctor needs to be taught a lesson. For as much money as you make you need to take some classes and learn some bedside manners. We were already told my father would not make it, it was absolutely unnecessary to continuously remind us. They asked us to talk to hospice. They continued to ask "what would your father want?" And excuse me, I love my father to death and beyond, I would not want my father alive against his wishes. But they do not know that at the time, even though he had a breathing tude, he smiled at us, he held our hand, he communicated. He was able to feel happiness. And there was no way in hell that I would take my father off the breathing machine. They just kept at it. So what happened was early one morning my fathers blood pressure got too low and he passed. My dads blood pressure had dropped before, they were aware of the problem and every time that happened, they would give him medication through an IV and bring it up. So when this happened I was stunned. It was way too coincidental that he passed that day. Just a day or 2 after I signed a DNR. I only signed the DNR because I did not want my father to have his heart shocked. If God chose to take him, then he took him. But I did not sign a DNR meaning to not give him medication. I felt all along that they were trying to get my dad out of there. I don't like it. It is a feeling in my gut, and I have great instincts. Anyway I have no clue how to go about all this. Like I said, the reason for all of this is for justice. Is for showing the Doctors and VA what happens when you mess with my Papa. Even though he isn't here, I am! And I will fight for his name and I will fight for the justice he was robbed. I cannot save him, but maybe I can save someone else. I knew my father was terribly sick. I am not naive, I did not expect him to walk out. But I also did not expect to be pressured to pull the plug. I did not expect to be wary of them and their intentions. My father was hurt in the army years ago, and he has received free medical from them for years. I always worried that money played a factor as well. If you have ideas for me, I would appreciate it. If you have negative comments please keep them to yourself. I just lost my father, the world lost a great man, of great humor, intelligence and spunk. more

Open Question: Help...i don't know how to make is sound as though my character is nervous and panicking?

I'm writing a story, basically what has happened is my character Alexis has just sung in front of a crowd of singing managers, record company producers etc. and the simon cowell of the story is coming over to offer her a recording contract. 'Lexi, are you even listening?' Billy aked putting his hand on my shoulder. 'No, sh-hh' i hushed waving my hand in his direction and pushing Jordan from in front of me to get a better look. Oh my god. It was Steven Dennis and having spotted me the teacher he was with, the dance teacher Mrs Barcley, pointed in my direction and they both started making their way towards me. 'Oh my god!' Alex, my ther friend, squeeled quietly behind me How can i make is sound as though my character Alexis is quietly panicking, nervous and worried all at the same time? more

Open Question: What should I do with my religion?

Hello, i am 16 years old. My parents are very very polish. i speak polish as well and its always the main language spoken in my house hold. We are christians, and attend a very traditional polish church. In my church, the history of jesus and god is spoken more than actual morals and beliefs we shud follow, which i do not completely agree with. also, the language spoken in my church is very specific and, well, VERY polish to the point where i have no idea what the priest is talking about, making mass very tiring and numbing abd tiring. i do not learn anything in my church because i do not understand the readings. one time i went to an american church and i was INSPIRED. i got home and changed alot in my life. including scandelous things and my whole outlook on life. that was about a year ago, and everyday i go back to that one mass, it was so amazing and i listened to every single word the pastor took in and i was so amazed. SO, heres my problem, i really really like the more catholic religion [american religion] way way more than the polish one. ive asked my parents to take me to tht mass more often but they dont allow it bc "its not what i should be learning." i really like it tho, and i really want to get involved. SO heres my question, since going with my parents and family is out of the question, what else shud i do?? ive been thinking about online masses or teachings but idk if tht still counts as going to mass. should i join a youth group? should i follow the polish religion nontheless? WHAT SHOULD I DO? please give me advice, i will appreciate every answer. thank you and God bless you more

Open Question: What do my constant nightmares of someone breaking into my house mean?

I know this might be long, but please read it. Every time I have a nightmare now it always involves someone breaking into my house. When I was in third grade someone broke into my house and thankfully my mom and I weren't there. It did scare me, and only bothered me a little but not as much now that I'm older. I'm 14 now and every time I have a nightmare it always involves someone braking into my house (I live in a new home now.) Whenever I have these nightmares it takes place in my new home, however I have had 2 nightmares of someone braking into my home that I used to live in. One od the nightmares that took place in my old house began with me being my age, 14, and my mom looking the way she does now (she dyed her hair, this is also weird because my mom and I moved when I starting 6th grade, and we don't live in that house anymore.) In this dream I was somewhere in the kitchen or the computer room and my mom was in her bedroom. My moms bedroom is in the same long hallway our door is, and mine is located in the hallway from my kitchen and the computer room, but the back door is really close to room. It takes less than 3 seconds to reach that door from my room. So in that dream out of no where we heard noise from the person braking in. That person was shaking or trying to brake the handle. I went to my moms room, and we were both aware the person was breaking in yet at the same time I said "we have to leave!" we both rushed to the back door, and my mom grabbed her black purse (that she actually has) off the kitchen island. I opened up the back door, and then when me and my mom were no longer inside the house I closed that door, and we both hurried down the stairs towards the deck door. We opened the deck door, and ran outside to our neighbors yard. I heard the person breaking into our home friend who said "hey look at them!" and then my dream ended. The weird thing is that in almost all of my nightmares when a person is breaking in the top lock is never closed, and by the time I try to close it, the person bashes into my home. My fear of being home alone has scared me so much that I even made a plan in my mind how I'm going to escape if someone trys breaking into my home. Every night i pray to God and say "please protect this home by putting an angel in every single room of this house, and put your presence on top of this home (as if he's looking over our home to protect my mom and my step dad.) This fear goes through my mind every day, and there isn't one day that goes by that I don't think about someone breaking into our home. Yesterday I was half asleep because I was in a lot of pain from cramps and I was listening to my mom watch the news. It was early in the morning. Then I heard the woman say "In south (city location in my state) has a 30% higher increase of people breaking into their homes. The rates continue to go up" That same day when my mom and I went for a walk and I brought this up she said, "I didn't hear the woman say that." but I heard it.. I'm just not sure. And if my mom didn't hear it then how I have possibly heard something like that? was it my brain? Also, that same day before the walk when my mom and I talked about that, and after I heard that, I took a nap and had a nightmare of someone breaking into my home. If my mom didn't hear it, then I could I have possibly heard something like that? was it my brain? Why do I keep having these nightmares? They scare me. What could these nightmares mean? Please add anything else you'd like to, I'd love to read as many answers as possible. Thank you so much. more

Open Question: worries over finances????

I am a kind of person who get extremely worried over finances time and again. Some of my other friends are not like that. Do you think if I pray that I should not have financial problem god will listen to me because I cannot handle the stress???????? more

Resolved Question: Question to other Christians...?

I recently went to Cornerstone Music Festival in Illinois and noticed something really disturbing..... There were Christians protesting this Christian festival. It makes no sense to me. Here is a video that someone took....http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DZ_2IwZ_Quw The guy protesting was saying that we were listening to the devils music...but here are a few lyrics from the band For Today, they are really metal, but that has nothing to do with what their message is. I will resist my sin to the point of blood, and I will wear my scars like badges of honor. But let my hope cry out that my God is greater than the pain of persecution. My God is greater than this world. There will never be another chance to live today for God. There will never be another name that can save us from ourselves. And so, steadfast and undeterred, I will proclaim the name of Christ to a dead and dying world. I am not ashamed! I am not ashamed! I am not ashamed! We will resist our sin to the point of blood, and we will wear our scars like badges of honor. But let our hope cry out that our God is greater than the pain of persecution. Blinded, I saw that Christ is Lord. Now, may the world see You through open eyes. God, my Father, reign. and here is the lead "screamer" preaching in their song Talmidim (The Servants) And through all of this, there is nothing, absolutely nothing, no fear, no insecurity, no doubt, no hesitation that will ever, ever stop us. Because we are the sons of the living God, because we are the children of the Almighty, because we are the residents of the kingdom of heaven, and we are soldiers in an army of the immortal. And when we speak life, life happens, and when we speak healing, healing happens, and when we speak truth, truth happens. And when we go take what we found to a dead world, we’ll see it come to life again, and when we take what we found to a hopeless world, we’ll see hope come back. We’ll see the heart of our world start beating again, and we’ll see the color come back into people’s faces. Absolutely nothing will ever stop that. Mountains will move before us, and oceans will part before us, and the dead will raise before us. And the world will know that our God is the God that heals, and our God is a God that lives, and our God is a God that loves, and like anything that anyone has ever felt before, because we are fearless, and because we are His hands, and because we are His feet. Forever, and ever. So....what makes this the devil's music???? i don't get it....someone help me out.ps.....watch more than one mintue of the video. more

Open Question: So you think Islam oppresses women?

Before you say anything I am an agnostic searching for the truth and i came across an interesting article that compares how Muslim women are treated differently to Christian and Jewish women. This is the regarding the holy books and not tradition or media! (people who rely on media are obviously deluded) Take a look at this; (Regarding Adam and eve) The serpent seduced Eve to eat from it and Eve, in turn, seduced Adam to eat with her. When God rebuked Adam for what he did, he put all the blame on Eve, “The woman you put here with me --she gave me some fruit from the tree and I ate it.” Consequently, God said to Eve: “I will greatly increase your pains in childbearing; with pain you will give birth to children. Your desire will be for your husband and he will rule over you.” To Adam He said: “Because you listened to your wife and ate from the tree .... Cursed is the ground because of you; through painful toil you will eat of it all the days of your life...” The Islamic conception of the first creation is found in several places in the Quran, for example: “O Adam dwell with your wife in the Garden and enjoy as you wish but approach not this tree or you run into harm and transgression. Then Satan whispered to them in order to reveal to them their shame that was hidden from them and he said: ‘Your Lord only forbade you this tree lest you become angels or such beings as live forever.’ And he swore to them both that he was their sincere adviser. So by deceit he brought them to their fall: when they tasted the tree their shame became manifest to them and they began to sew together the leaves of the Garden over their bodies. And their Lord called unto them: ‘Did I not forbid you that tree and tell you that Satan was your avowed enemy?’ They said: ‘Our Lord we have wronged our own souls and if You forgive us not and bestow not upon us Your Mercy, we shall certainly be lost’ “ (7:19:23). ----------------- long story short in the quran both are blamed where as in the bible women is blamed. If you read on st pauls constantly blames women for there trickery and seductiveness. In Judaism men actually thank god they weren't made a women (as a recited prayer!) Here's the article- http://islamnewsroom.com/news-we-need/335-womennorights and also what are your opinions? thanks :) more

Open Question: If there is a God then why doesn't it reveal himself to us?

Why do you believe in God?give me a good reason for it. The only reason people believe in God is because they are influenced by others, if a child never listen about God then it will never believe in it not even when the child grow up. If you believe there is a God, don't you think God should reveal him/herself to us? Plus, how do you know that what the bible says is true? it was written 2 thousand years ago, and we know that at that time people were stupid, maybe Jesus was just a smart man that fooled everybody, and why there is no prophet at this time? because most people can't be fooled at this time, I'm not saying I don't wanna believe in God, but I can't believe in a stupid book full of bullshit. I'm gonna write my own book then, maybe I'm gonna make history :)Plus people say that Jesus showed himself to us. How do you know that? because you read a stupid book that says that? you're a bunch of paranoids that can be manipulated like a sheep on a field lol more

Open Question: Are the first five years the most important in a child's life? What if your partner continuallyundermines you?

Your ex partner undermined your parenting, told the daughter not to listen to Mommy because Mommy was "Stupid" and the child was continually told this over and over again so she believed it and learned instead how to manipulate to get what she wants and your child turns into a willful spoiled amoral brat whose main attitude in life is "what's in it for me" and has no respect for herself, for her family, for God, for anything but Ronnie James Dio, Heavy Metal and the Soup? What if your partner was nothing but a sociopathic slob who never really gave a damn about the girl but used her to get back at you for whatever reason? How do you reach the girl before she goes out into the real world and they eat her up alive? Oh and the ex partner when confronted with how his daughter is (he has sporadically seen her throughout the years and thinks of himself as a "party dad" instead of a real father) and has told you that she is "your problem, not his" What would YOU do? more

Resolved Question: What do you think of "Traditions of Men"...meaning many of Christendom's customs that aren't Biblical?

(Mark 7:7-8) . . .It is in vain that they keep worshiping me, because they teach as doctrines commands of men.’ 8 Letting go the commandment of God, YOU hold fast the tradition of men.” (Matthew 15:3) In reply he said to them: “Why is it YOU also overstep the commandment of God because of YOUR tradition? (Mark 7:9) 9 Further, he went on to say to them: “Adroitly YOU set aside the commandment of God in order to retain YOUR tradition. (Mark 7:13-14) . . .thus YOU make the word of God invalid by YOUR tradition which YOU handed down. And many things similar to this YOU do.” 14 So, calling the crowd to him again, he proceeded to say to them: “Listen to me, all of YOU, and get the meaning.FIREBALL: Huh? more

Resolved Question: How do you handle a kid whose always...?

*I posted this question under family/parenting just now too, BUT I was wondering if you "deep ppl with all the psychological answers can help me how the mind of a young teen works...read below to see what i mean!! ------ It's hard for teens to listen to parents these days, but it is also hard for parents ESPECIALLY 'ONLY MOTHERS' to see that their daughters don't wanna be controlled...But i wonder what kind of environment Texas is for kids like that. I especially heard the middle school in San Antonio Texas (I know ther are alot of schools in San Antonio lol, but jus a middle school in particular), by my 14 yr old cousin WHO GOES THERE!! This question is about her..actually, and frankly, thinking about this question pisses me off. Here it goes: 'How do you handle a kid whose always saying "It's up to you" or "You decide" or "Whatever, it doesnt' matter"...like...really? I'm asking (as a 16yr old cuz) what she wants to do. She's staying here over the summer. But I'm not asking you guys to tell me what I should do during the summer with her! I'm asking PARENTS/OLDER SIBLINGS/OR YOUNG TEENS WHO THINK THEY'RE OLD ENOUGH TO DO WHATEVER **** THEY WANNA DO (: <--cuz, apparently my cousin is like that. I mean i bet you parents out there are pissed that your child wants FREEEDOMMM, or you are clearly blind cuz u spoil them rotten or you don't give a damn. *whisper: which is the reason y kids like my cousin end up like this: acting independent, freakishly smart grades, has everything cuz she's also the only child, but has an only mother... ---I really should post this question under philosophy you know? To have answers that open up what's going on inside the child's mind verses children who don't have everything, who seem weak cuz they depend on others, who have a family of four, and who aren't that giftedly smart....So help me out. Give me some advice, cuz you can clearly tell, I don't like kids who are only 14 god damnit, WITH an only parent or with TWO PARENTS saying "i don't like how my mom controls me" or *best friend says to asian bff "y the **** are your parents so strict?!"....lol i think you get the picture (: and yes my cousin is filipina-asianamerican and so am i. so feel free you pinoys, americans, the english, or any other country or continent who wants to answer this question!! :) thanksxoxxx more

Resolved Question: what do you think of my rap so far...?

tell me is it good or absolute terrible or need to fix it a bit screaming f--- the devil, praying to god cuz thats my revel listen to the true words from my level, thats coming out my lung began selling green when i was young cops watching my every move, caring a key but felt like a ton stood em in the face, just speaking but am feeling i was getting hung came to the school n arrested me for stupid $---- i have done no 2Nd chances life's with no advances, Lil kids getting a cigar am on earth but looking for a bigger star... more

Open Question: I made a parody of rucka rucka ali's go cops and I want you all to hear the lyrics and tell me what you think?

Jesus was black I die and go to heaven in 1910 Then I meet Jesus and I'm like "holy shit he's black!" Then god was like "hell yeah! I know right! We call him hot chocolate! I went down to earth and called them Africans nigros" You nice man People are really mean Why did they kill gods son Just because he's an immigrant from Africa Obama thinks he is black But he ain't no true niggro Jesus will suck your vagina Jesus was a nig That's why he died on a cross His mom was second miss indoneisa His dad had a wife but all of them were from Africa Chimp chimp chimp chimp Chimp chimp chimp chimp God smokes marijuana And other types of drugs Jesus told his followers "drugs are presents from santa". Then one day people started to smoke them and they all died Nig nig nig nig Nig nig nig nig So we all know Jesus will revive in 2010 Then he's gonna cause the second 9-11 with ghandi The chinese army and the us navy join forces God and Jesus both finds a black guy to **** That's not cool Jesus is really strong Japanese men are gay They both served in straight camp for 4 years Germans called him homosexual Jesus was real pissed off Jesus was real pissed off Jesus was real pissed off Satan hates Jesus Because god sucked on his cock That's why 3/4 of niggas in he'll are gay Nigga moments are scary if black Jesus Gets in to it Bam bam bam bam Splat splat splat splat God loves bowling with new zealand prostitutes They all go to strip clubs then the girls are in a fight Grabbing tits spanking ass only god isn't that gay Pam pam pam Pam Pam Grab grab grab grab Jesus asked me on top of the clouds "dude how did you die I really want to know" I said "I died in a plane crash when I was going to Iraq Angels asked me "touch my titties I'll give you ten million dollars" I said "fuck no. You lost them boobs. I know you had cancer when you were were were were were Then Jesus said "hey man no bullshittin let's have sex in the car" Jesus was a nig That's why he died on a cross His mom was the Second miss Indonesia His dad had a wife but all of them were from Africa Chimp chimp chimp chimp Chimp chimp chimp chimp God smokes marijuana And other types of drug Jesus told his followers "drugs are presents from santa". Then one day people started to smoke them and they all died" Nig nig nig nig Nig nig nig nig ps. Listen to it with instrumental of tik tok if you want ;)Also the swears are hidden so if you are having difficulties find out the words here it is: *** = n.i.g, a.s.s, f.u.c.k, n.I.g.g.r.o , c.o.c.k, etc more

Resolved Question: Lesbians(and all other queer girls) do you smirk?

Have you ever seen a straight girl smirk? It seems like most of my questions start with 'Have you ever' but this one, think about it. I don't want to hear about generalizing etc etc but this is an honest to god real question. I don't play softball and I don't like Tegan and Sara and my hair is long but I smirk. A lot. I was reading some blogs (<SIDENOTE> omg I discovered Ivan Coyote today and listened to what is my new favorite queer poem on youtube! I started crying half way through http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Q7IzwUa_kI </sidenote> ) and have been reading a very interesting and intelligent(no, really) queer blog for the last hour and the writer mentioned something about how lesbians smirk and straight girls don't and I have never seen another girl that smirks and have met so few lesbians it is shameful and I don't know that I have had the opportunity to even see if they smirk, haha. Maybe this is the biggest gaydar breakthrough since forever! (Just kidding. Mostly. lol) So, anyways, I need to know. If you are a lesbian and you smirk, post here! If you are a queer woman and you don't even know what a smirk is, tell me! If you are a straight girl and have somehow wandered into the LGBT category do you smirk?Its pretty much accepted that lesbians are are at less risk for getting HIV/AIDS than straight people. So...I win!Nervous- I know, right?! lol. The post was very convincing though and I felt compelled to make this topic. Tomorrow I'm sure every 5th girl I pass on the streets will be smirking about something. more

Open Question: Who has a hole in their heart and wants it fixed?

I just listening to Air1 and a song came up. The main line of the chorus was: "There's a God-shaped hole in all of us." The idea was that only God can fill the God-shaped hole in our hearts. I want to admit right now that I have a god-shaped hole in my heart. If you don't believe in God, at least take a moment to acknowledge the hole in your heart that can't be stoppered with anything from the world. Cause it might just be the best decision you'll ever make. I still haven't fully admitted it, but as I allow Jesus to fill that hole in my heart, I grow stronger. Just take a moment to recognize that you can't do it alone. Is there any harm in that? Jesus loves you!Matt- You are the one saying "crap" because you actually used the word crap. If you want to know what I am saying, just read my question. more

Open Question: Qadianis: what are some good books which contain the most authentic sayings of Mirza Ghulam Ahmed Qadian?

Please mention all. and do also share relevent links if you can. For i am reading very astounding stuff online, and i wanna verify it formyself. hope you understand. After reading the following: Mirza Ghulam Qadiani expressed many ideas about the nature of God that are contrary to the Islamic doctrine of monotheism and the sublime nature of the Creator expressed in the holy Quran. The following are a brief sampling of his novel ideas: 'Allah said unto me: "I pray and keep fasting; I stay awake and sleep".' (Roohany Khazaen, Vol. 19, P. 251; Al-Bushra, V.2, P.79,97; Tadhkira, P. 474 (1st Edition); Mawahib ul Rahma, P. 35) 'Allah said: "I fast and I break my fast".' (Roohany Khazaen, Vol. 22, P. 107) 'Allah Taala said: "I am with the Messenger and I will answer (to his call); I can be wrong; I can be right".' (Roohany Khazaen, Vol. 22, P. 106; Al-Bushra, V.2, P. 79; Tadhkira, P. 475) "In a vision, I saw God in a visionary expression and I wrote many predictions; then I placed many papers before God for his signature, so that he may confirm my demands. I saw that God wrote something and without hesitation put His signature in red ink. At the time of signing, he jerked the pen as they do when ink on the nib is in excess and they throw it down. I was very sensitive at that time that God was so kind to me that whatever I demanded He put His signature on that without any hesitation." (Roohany Khazaen, Vol. 22, p. 267; Haqiqatul Wahi, P. 255; Taryaqul-Qulub, P. 62) 'Oh sun, Oh moon, you are from Me (Allah) and I am from you.' (Roohany Khazaen, Vol. 22, p. 77; Haqiqatul Wahi, P. 73/74; Tadhkira P. 518, 625) "It is an inspiration O'Mirza! Whatsoever you intend for, it comes into existence instantaneously by your order." (Roohany Khazaen, Vol. 22, P. 108; Tadhkira, P. 525/527, 656, Ed. II P. 826; Haqeeqat-al-Wahey P. 105) 'It was revealed to me: "We give you glad news of a son; he will be as a symbol of truth and greatness as if God has descended from heaven." (Roohany Khazaen, Vol. 22, P. 712; Haqiqatul Wahi, Al-Istifta, P. 85/95; Tadhkira, P. 284) "Thou are from My water and they (other humans) from cowardice." (Anjam-e-Atham, P.55; Tadhkira, P. 204; Haqiqat-ul-Wahi, P. 337) "God descended into me and I was a hidden treasure; so I wished to be recognized. He told me that I was a medium between Him and His creatures." (Kitabul Bariyyah, P. 75) "God told me: 'You are just like my son'." (Tadhkira, P. 526, 642, 399) 'God addressed me in these words: "Listen to me, my son".' (Al-Bushra, V. 1, P. 49) "I saw myself as if I was a woman and Allah spilled into me His reproductive power of manliness." (Yar Muhammad Qadiani: Islami Qurbani, P. 34; Zabiat-ul-Islam, P. 34) "I have a secrete relation with God, which is quite unutterable." (Roohany Khazaen, Vol. 21, P. 81; Buraheen-i-Ahmadia, Part V, P. 63) "I (Allah) intended to nominated My successor, so I created Adam that is you (Mirza Ghulam)." (Kitab-al-Baria, P. 84; Rabwa Ed. I P. 76) "Our God is made of ivory." (Tadhkira, P. 105) "Allah praises you (Mirza) in the heavens. He praises you and comes to you." (Anjam-e-Atham, P. 55-56; Tadhkira, P. 276, 2nd Edition)Allah! There is no god but He,-the Living, the Self-subsisting, Eternal. No slumber can seize Him nor sleep. His are all things in the heavens and on earth. Who is there can intercede in His presence except as He permitteth? He knoweth what (appeareth to His creatures as) before or after or behind them. Nor shall they compass aught of His knowledge except as He willeth. His Throne doth extend over the heavens and the earth, and He feeleth no fatigue in guarding and preserving them for He is the Most High, the Supreme (in glory). (The Holy Quran, Al-Baqara, 2:255) Allah is one Allah: Glory be to Him: (far exalted is He) above having a son. To Him belong all things in the heavens and on earth. And enough is Allah as a Disposer of affairs. (The Holy Quran, An-Nisa, 4:171)@readers: please dont post any pejorative remarks. This is NOT a sect fight. Hope we learn from each other. In case i offended anyone, do reply, and i shall delete this question.My previous question relating to the Qadianis: http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=Ai3NlMVjoEr39tFsDa96J73sy6IX;_ylv=3?qid=20100706032812AApQkZc@do good: i dont trust 'anti ahmedi sites', they are liable to misquote / err. Hope you understand, it is better to ask the believers of a particular faith to present their evidence themselves. Its a more just approach, the way i see it. It seems i will have to wait long for the reply. *sigh*@sara: the pleasure was all mine. BTW, can YOU share any authentic books referring to the original scriptures to which the Qadianis refer to? especially the ones written by their own respectable figures.@salma: STRONG LANGUAGE! Whoa!@salma: sister, i sincerely apologize, for i seek from YOU the authentic books which YOU will recommend. I will deny these lies which i quote (for they are nothing more than copy paste). Please forgive me for my naivity, BUT i will only delete my question: ONCE you DO provide me with some relevant links to the books of Mirza Ghulam Ahmed Qadiani. Hope you 'cool down'. i never intended to hurt your feelings .(although it may seem other wise). May Allah guide us all to the rightful path. i.e. Islam, as mentioned in the Quran and the Sahih Hadith of the Holy Prophet SAW. Ameen.Bukhari :: Book 8 :: Volume 73 :: Hadith 116 Narrated 'Abdullah: The Prophet said, "Truthfulness leads to righteousness, and righteousness leads to Paradise. And a man keeps on telling the truth until he becomes a truthful person. Falsehood leads to Al-Fajur (i.e. wickedness, evil-doing), and Al-Fajur (wickedness) leads to the (Hell) Fire, and a man may keep on telling lies till he is written before Allah, a liar."List of books written by Mirza ghulam Ahmed http://aaiil.org/text/books/mga/fulllistmirzaghulamahmadqadianibooks.shtml A short description/synopsis/summary of each book can be obtained by clicking the book's name. * Baraheen-i-Ahmadiyya, vol. 1 to 4, 1880-1884 * Purani Tahreerein, 1879 (printed in 1899) * Surmah Chasm Arya, September, 1886 * Shahnah-e-Haq, 1888 * Subz Ishtayhar, 1 December, 1888 * Fath-i-Islam, 22 January, 1891 * Taudih Maram, 22 January, 1891 * Izalah Auham, 3 September, 1891 * Al-Haq Mubahisa Ludhiana, October, 1891 * Al-Haq Mubahisa Delhi, October, 1891 * Asmani Faisila, December, 1891 * Nishan-i-Asmani, 26 May, 1892 * Barakat-ud-Du'a, 3 April, 1893 * Aina-i-Kamalat-i-Islam, 26 February, 1893 * Hujjat-ul-Islam, 8 May 1893 * Suchaaee kaa Izhaar, 12 May, 1893 * Jang-i-Muqaddas, June, 1893 * Tuhfa Baghdad, July, 1893 * Karamat as-Sadiqin, 24 August, 1893 * Shahadat-ul-Quran, 22 September, 1893 * Hamamah-tul-Bushra, 1894* Nur al-Haq (Arabic), vol. 1, February, 1894 * Ittimam-e-Hujjat, June, 1894 * Sirr-ul-Khilafah, July, 1894 * Anwar al-Islam, 6 September, 1894 * Minnun-ur-Rahman, 1895 * Zia-ul-Haq, May, 1895 * Nur-ul-Quran, vol. 1, August, 1895 * Arya Dharam, September, 1895 * Nur-ul-Quran, vol. 2, December, 1895 * May-yaar-ul-Muzhub, 1895 * Saat Buchan, December, 1895 * Islami Usool kee Philosophy, December, 1896 * Anjam-i-Atham with Zamimah, 22 January, 1897 * Siraj-i-Munir, 24 March, 1897 * Hujjat-ul-Allah, 2 May, 1897 * Tohfa-e-Qaiseriyya, May, 1897 * Istiftaa, 16 May, 1897 * Siraj-ud-Din ‘Isai kay Char Sawalon kay Jawab, 22 June, 1897 * Kitab al-Bariyyah, 24 January, 1898 * Al-Balagh, May, 1898 * Zuroorat-ul-Imam, September, 1898 * Najm-ul-Huda, 20 November, 1898 * Raz-i-Haqiqat, 30 November, 1898 * Kashf al-Ghita, 27 December, 1898 * Ayyam as-Sulah, January, 1899 * Haqiqat-ul-Mahdi, February, 1899 * Maseeh Hindustan Mein, 1899* Sitara-e-Qaisuriyya, 24 August, 1899 * Roo’aydaad Jalsa Du‘a, 2 February, 1900 * Lujjat-an-Noor, 1900 * Government Angrezi aur Jihad / Zamimah Risala Jihad, 22 May, 1900 * Araba’in No. 1, 23 July, 1900 * Araba’in No. 2, September, 1900 * Araba’in No. 3, 15 December, 1900 * Araba’in No. 4, 15 December, 1900 * Ijaz-ul-Maseeh, 20 February, 1901 * Aik Ghalati ka Izalah, November, 1901 * Dafi’ al-Bala’, 23 April, 1902 * Al-Huda’, 12 June, 1902 * Nuzool al-Masih, 20 August, 1902 * Tuhfa Golarwiyyah, 1 September, 1902 * Tuhfa-e-Guznaviyya, 3 October 1902 * Tuhfah an-Nadwah, 6 October, 1902 * Kishti-i-Nooh, 5 October, 1902 * Khutbah Ilhamiyyah, 17 October, 1902 * Tiryaq al-Qulub, 28 October, 1902 * Ijaz-i-Ahmadi, 15 November, 1902 * Review Mubahisa Chakralwi wa Batalvi, 27 November, 1902 * Mawahib-ur-Rahman, 14 January, 1903 * Naseem-e-Daawut, 28 February, 1903 * Sanatun Dhurum, 8 March, 1903 * Tazkirah-tush-Shahadatain, 16 October, 1903* Seerat al-Abdal, 14 December, 1903 * Lecture Lahore, 3 September, 1904 * Lecture Islam Sialkot, 2 November, 1904 * Lecture Ludhiana, 4 November, 1905 * Al-Wasiyyat, 20 December, 1905 * Chashma-i-Masihi, 1 March, 1906 * Tajalliyyat-i-Ilahiyya, 15 March, 1906 * Qadian kay Arya aur Hum, 20 February, 1907 * Haqiqat al-Wahy, 15 May, 1907 * Chashma-i-Ma’rifat, 15 May, 1908 * Khat Banam Akhbar-i-‘Am (Letter to Akhbar-i-‘Am), 23 May, 1908 * Paigham-us-Sulah, 24 May, 1908 * Barahin-i-Ahmadiyya (vol. 5) and its Supplements, 15 October, 1908 * Mujmu’ah Ishtiharat, 1912, 1913@salma: next time sister, my sincere advice to you is to mind you language. ^_^ more

Open Question: Best audio system maker?

Ok, I have a 1999 Mitsubishi Eclipse GS-T which I plan on doing A LOT of engine work to (I'm more into horsepower adders then audio systems) but since I'm only 15 I suppose I should pay attention to audio and get that done.... I have been told that it is all about person preference but I can't possibly listen to all system combos before making a decision so what are the best? I was tol SoundStream, Kicker I hear is alright, Alpine has always seemed good... I just don't know what to look for.. I listen to Rap, R&B, Pop, Hip-Hop, Rock, Metal, Metal-Pop (yes its real), Soft Rock, Hard Rock (not very much though, if ever), and many others. I really like music as you can tell... But I like A LOT of bass. Ever since I was little... So what would be a good idea to look at in sizes, companies and whatnot. Hook me up! God bless you all. more

Open Question: What are some good Christian songs?

I love ones like I'm Not Alright by Sanctus Real Feel The Light by Britt Nicole Held by Natalie Grant songs like that. What are some of your favs? Do you have any recommendations for me with the examples I gave you? or just any recommendations of your favs in general why are they your favs? Just trying to find some good worship music. ITs been a very long time since Ive listened to it- too long even, I want to get my relationship with God back to where to was or even better and where it needs to be. So this will help me. Thanks! more

Open Question: Why do Christians compare Adam and Eve to children?

Adam and Eve are pre-sin. Children are after sin. The two cannot be compared. This is about the "If a parent tells their child..." explanation. A child is not totally innocent the same way as Adam and Eve. They are born with this "sin", just not fully developed. This "sin" is called their base survival instinct. They know fear because their minds are capable of that feeling. Fear leads to desperation which leads to actions you may categorize as a "sin". Also, Adam and Eve did have knowledge. However, they did not have knowledge of good and evil. Which is key. If you don't know that disobedience is evil, what's stopping a curious but innocent person from doing it? Also, if God told them about the consequences, what is he trying to do by that? Scare them? What are they suppose to think about that consequence? Are they supposed to be afraid. When a person regards a certain thing, such as obedience to God, as important, then this importance has a reason. The reason would be that the person they loved, told them. However, they did not know that evil things like disobedience would hurt that love for God. What exactly tied them to hold this importance? What could possibly cause them to choose to obey God? It would be as if their brains would randomly choose whether or not to obey God. A person performs an action for a reason. This reason is derived from the brain. The preferred action is weighed against your feelings. Your feelings are influenced by your thoughts as your thoughts are influenced by your feelings. For example, when you are hungry (feeling) you may want to steal (thought). The thought came about because of the feeling. The feeling of desperation is further boosted by the thought (stealing) because the thought of stealing shows that you have no other way. Since Adam and Eve were told not to eat the fruit (thought) they should to listen for a reason (feeling). Love is that feeling. However, they have freewill. In this regard, their thoughts are free to wonder. Since they know that disobedience will cause said punishment (thought) it does not influence their feelings of fear or pain since they know of either. The feelings of sadness and guilt because of disobedience to God also isn't there since the bible said they were happy all the time. So they thought of the wrong thing not knowing it was wrong. To not do something, you must know it is wrong. If you tell someone not to steal and they don't know that it is wrong to steal or to disobey you, they'll randomly decide what to do. The role feelings play into this is mainly reinforcement of adhering to principles. Like if you feel sadness, you will not want to do what makes you sad. They experienced no sadness. So in the end, Adam and Eve did not know exactly which path to take because they didn't know that either path was right or wrong. Remember, it was the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. So that suggests they knew of neither one.heartless Well, children are comparatively innocent compared to adults. However, children are born with the same biological survival instincts as adults. Even though they have not yet performed actions to influence their reputation, they have the biology to be capable of those things as they grow older. Adam and Eve did not. more

Open Question: Does this guy have an interest in me? He seems to like me but I just met him...?

I literally just met him today at our drama class. (my drama class is three weeks long every week day from 7 to 4!! It's school in the summer!! haha) so when I first walked in he looked back at me and then I sat down kinda behind him and he turned his head slightly to look at me again and he quickly looked away when he saw I was looking at him lol. So that started it (Ik that means absolutely nothing he was just looking...I just figured I'd add it in) soo later....when we were doing group activities and getting in circles multiple times he kept staring at me....for example... today during one of our classes (we switch off to learn different stuff with different teachers like....vocals with one...choreography with another etc) it was break time and everyone was just scattered around...like...lots of kids were in the bathroom and getting drinks...me and my friend were standing kinda to the side..it was kinda quiet and there were a few kids standing off to the side and stuff and he was sitting on the floor against the wall. And I looked at him cuz I caught him looking at me and he quickly looked away and then I looked out of the corner of my eye and he was looking at me again. And he kept doing this through all the classes and he would just keep looking at me and looking away really fast. And it was funny cuz people would be silent and listening to the instructor in the auditorium and we'd just have this lik "moment" where we kept lookin at each other while everyone else was completely unaware lol. I tried to smile at him cuz he is kinda cute and his eyes got big lol!! and then towards the end of the day he was actually trying to be near me and sit near me....and then when everyone got together (including all 100 kids) in the auditorium to read through our scripts...I went and sat next to him since my friends were on the other side of him (I scooched inbetween them lol) and he started fidging really bad...I could just feel he was tensing up lol... so....do u think maybe he just thought that I'm....attractive? Or do u think he might like me? He kinda stares at everyone when they're performing or doing something but I just felt like he payed the most attention to me... idk. btw I don't mean to brag..but I got LOTS of look from LOTS of guys and girls and they all just stare at me and....idk....god I hate bragging..sorry...I'm just saying.....cuz...I would've thought he just liked my personality or something if I was just normal or attractive but since I'm kind of a model... I figured maybe he jst thought I was good looking! lol....sorrryyy:( thank you!!! :DDsorry I meant normal or unatractive. And that last paragraph is really confusing. What i meant by the whole think is that I'm freaking stunning. Thats why I get looks....I just didnt wanna say the word cuz....its rude to brag:( more

Open Question: I'm at the library looking for some good books? Any suggestions?

I'm 16 years old and my mom won't let me read any books with mythical creautures (wizards, vampires, gods, ghosts...she's really religious and thinks all these things are "evil"), sex, drugs, swearing, alchohol, etc (at least not too much. she'll let me read books with a little bit of swearing and mentions of sex, but nothing that promotes these things). well technically she can't really stop me, but i don't wanna listen to another one of her lectures. any ideas?? What I'm looking for is books about living, human teenagers. Can you think of anything?? BQ: someone told me about this book about this girl who commits suicide, but before she does it she makes all these tapes telling a bunch of people about how they had a part in her death or something. anybody know what it's called?You have to read Animal Farm in grade 11 English at my school so there's no point in reading it now. more